Christmas Presence

I was getting edgy. The world’s noise, coupled with the quick changes, created anxiety. For six weeks I attempted to up my patience game. Many changes had been just temporary; a few permanent like this one. So many calls to make, things to do, and I had dear friends to help (thank you!).

Waiting to move-waiting for the R.V. to sell-waiting to decide what was needed; and what was not. Worried about getting gifts bought and mailed off in time-praying for the physical strength to accomplish goals. And mentally, I was just struggling with achieving any balance. And then talking to so many people to make the necessary changes (does anyone else wonder if society has lost the ability to just listen rather than voice opinions or thoughts?).

My Heavenly Father always listens. He only interrupts me when I need it (I’m no longer interrupting him). It’s becoming quieter. And in the quiet I can hear exactly the voice I need to hear-no judgement, criticism, and opinion. Just three days before Christmas I have landed in a space of peaceful existence-my new home.

With incredible happiness, and complete exhaustion, I watched as the R.V. drove away. It was bittersweet. This last week has definitely been a challenge. But dare I utter this when so many have battles? I’m hyperaware of the needs of those around me (and the globe for that matter). I’m thankful for a roof over my head, furniture to sit on, food in the refrigerator, and the list goes on. I started unwrapping in my last post. And I’ve found the most amazing gifts of all.

The Christmas presence I’m holding propels me to want to pay everything forward. I want to shout it from a mountain top. For I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that HE is able. 🎵 And this gift of grace began with the humble birth of our Savior over 2,000 years ago. His presence is the most special gift of all.

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.” Luke 2: 11-14

To my WP family and friends: I’ve missed you.❤ I’m goal-setting through prayer and excited about a new year (aren’t we all?). To my friend Kate: Yes, I will be making a vision board too. Merry Christmas everyone! May miracles find you. I pray you’re able to spend time with family and friends and that the real reason for your celebration is solidified through the presence of something much greater than us all-the presence of God’s peace, love, and promise. 💚

Have faith ❣

Some of you have asked about my new home and wanted updates. Here you go. ❤

“Homing in”

Owning a home is a blessing…..isn’t it? When I reflect on my past homes I vividly recall the tremendous efforts I made towards “perfection”. The home was a direct reflection of me (I was messier at times than the house). I took pride in every room~particularly the kitchen, my favorite spot. My boys needed to love their home. There was comfort there. Despite earthly turmoils and heartaches at times, there were also periods of peace, laughter, and love. ❣

“For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, and eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.”

2 Corinthians 5:1

If you’re familiar with my essays, or my life, you understand the shifting sands I’ve experienced. And I know for a fact a home cannot be built on shifting sand. I’m not the first, nor the last, to experience it (shift happens).

To avoid confusion between “honing in” and “homing in” I’ll use them in examples: Definitely, I’ve been honing my skills (honing as “sharpening”) through years of valleys and peaks. And now, once again, I’m homing in on my summer territory once again.

Home~*a place where one lives permanently (noun), *to go or return to one’s place of residence or origin (verb), and my favorite verb meaning~*to return by instinct to its territory after leaving it.

Merriam-Webster Dictionary

Living tiny in a big world

Owning something brings pride. Particularly if you have invested your own sweat, blood, and tears. Ownership is coupled with great responsibility. And after years of shifting and believing that I had finally found “home”, I was ready to downsize and find what fits “me”.

Perhaps the years of walking halls, traveling in the summers, and dreaming big inspired my “nomadic” tendencies (or a born gypsy?). Becoming overly practical and simple supported my healing. It was 5 years ago I was determined I could live “tiny”. Everything I owned fit in a 50 sq. ft. storage unit (still does).

Living in an R.V. definitely has its positive and negatives. Just as owning a home. Should I rent or buy? I almost sold my R.V. (taking down the “For Sale” sign is a good thing for now). For the last 18 months I’ve dreamed of my tiny home. I walked into the office of a local log cabin builder and asked, “Can you build me a tiny log home….on wheels?” A local bank was willing to give me a personal loan IF I placed 50% down. Unfortunately, there are those who might have an Uncle Frank (take no offense Franks) who decides to build a shed (not at all compliant with ANSI or R.V.I.A. codes), put it on a “shifty” trailer, and call it a park model or tiny home. There are many building codes, zoning, and regulations tripping up tiny home owners. Furthermore, you have to have SOMEWHERE to place it. It’s WAY easier to get an R.V. loan than a park model or tiny home (typical salesman: “I’d love for you to buy that $60,000.00 rig for huge interest although we know it will depreciate $10,000 as soon as you drive it off the lot~much like cars”). I won’t stop dreaming of a tiny dwelling. But in the meantime, I’ll enjoy NOT paying mortgage and property taxes and being responsible for anything that could go monstrously wrong with anything bigger than my 34 ft. Rockwood Windjammer. For now, it’s still safe and practical. But I won’t stop dreaming of my tiny home.

“For the record, I have to be in a position to travel to see my amazing grown sons, daughter-in-law’s, and now, the newest loves in my life–GRANDCHILDREN! I guess between J and I we will need at least 4 tiny homes to hold possible grandchildren vacays.”

Grammy K

I’m home in Missouri. Nestled in the rolling hills near lakes and lots of activity, Branson is a great family-friendly place. But truly home is where I “make it”. And homing in at the campground for a season brings me peace. Nothing else to me beats sitting around the campfire with my fellow workkampers. They are family to me. We are a like-minded outdoorsy kind-of tribe who enjoy fires, the outdoors, the ins & outs of R.V. living, and meeting other travelers. We’ve become “ok” to the things that aren’t as “easy” (emptying black and grey tanks, going to the laundrymat, keeping propane filled, etc….). Perhaps it builds our grit while keeping us humble?

One day wheels might take us to a new home, possibly West. But I don’t spend my time worrying. In the meantime, after this season ends, I’ll think about how to hunker down next winter. Our families are here and they need us. And when I need to jet off to one of my own children or grandchildren, I won’t have have anything but a “tiny” place to leave. Workkamping boosts my spirits, energy, and wallet. Last night I visited with some fellow workkampers, both in their 70’s, who had decided to dwell in a condo for the winter. They agreed that their money will be more well-spent on memories. For some of us, we chose this life. And for some, me included, life kind of chose it for us and we found it to be our “home”.

Wherever you are I hope you “home in” on the most important things in your life.

Have faith. 💚