All that mattered was the dirt and a few toys. With happy tears, my mind drifted to two decades ago – little boys, few toys, dirt, gravel, nature, and a camper. Slipping further back, I fell into a trance of simpler times. Grandma’s garden, rivers and floating, dirt on a field, and face-to-face visits. Digging up dirt didn’t apply to judgment, daily scrolling, and comparisons. Staying grounded keeps me growing.
Little toes they only know,
The simple joys as they grow.
Digging dirt and catching bugs,
Growing minds accepting hugs.
Tears of joy run down my face,
Feeling the peace in this space.
Oh, what a beautiful stage and age,
Time moves fast and turns the page.
Hold on to moments in the dirt,
Life’s not easy, you’ll experience hurt.
Grow in kindness and accept the love.
From family, friends, and up above.
K.L. Hale
Instead of digging up dirt on someone or something that doesn’t help us grow, can we remember the simple things that we should know? Kindness, forgiveness, and times to play, instead of comparing, miscommunicating, and pushing others away? The dings, the noise, and all the distractions hijack us from our main attractions.
Do you allow others to fill your plate on things in which you can’t relate? Does forced congestion stop your digestion?
I have always believed that a good laugh was good for both the mental and physical digestion.
Abraham Lincoln
Friends, how’s your digestion? There’s much to digest these days! The things most easy for my system are family celebrations, visits, and special times. Holidays, events, and day-to-day… add doctor’s visits it’s just my way. Each morning I begin my day in quiet time with my Heavenly Father. Without this time my digestion would struggle more. Too much of a worldly diet creates a blockage. And if you suffer in any way, literally or spiritually, you know exactly what I mean.
To my diet, I added laughter and a celebration of another year! My twin and I shared laughs and memories. Yesterday I celebrated differently. It was time to ground myself again. In a world where I’d rather not have attention, be like any leaf on a tree, I escaped to my happy place. A quarter of a mile was mud, fallen limbs, thick brush, and a tight trail. There were obstacles to maneuver. Like a limb on my head, this thought hit me, “The obstacles I’m climbing in my day-to-day have been practiced for years. My walks have shortened, but I’m prepared for this marathon.”
My dear friend Martha shared something that I’ll not forget, “We mourn ourselves because we are also the things we love and the things we do.” She shared many other words of wisdom including, “Pangs of nostalgia, the recognition of permanent changes in our lives as a result of something we could never control or choose, are hard. They are (I think) emblematic of a heartbreak we don’t want to look at because there’s no point and we have to live in our present moment, but they are still here.” I’m still digesting these beautiful words. I have decisions to make.
Have you heard of NET, yet?🦓
Last Wednesday during ZOOM time, with my friends from the LACNETS virtual support group, I sat astonished by this amazing group of humans (just like you, the reader!). Samuel swims in a beautiful lake, Susan tends to her amazing garden, Brent helped a historical magnificent church organ, Margo sculpts the angelic faces of Alzheimer’s patients, Ashley woodturns and helps Veterans, Neil has bonding time with his son and sports, Denny loves photography in nature, Cindy supports and attends semipro women’s soccer games, Cynthia “roars” as she did as a H.S. mascot in ’74, Judy brings FB hope to others, Beth makes quilts for her grandkids, Nora introduced us to her daughter at college, Jan was traveling to see her astronaut brother who has set a record for NASA https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jerry_L._Ross#:~:text=Ross,-Article%20Talk&text=Jerry%20Lynn%20Ross%20(born%20January,with%20Franklin%20Chang%2DDiaz)., Dorinda knits for gratitude, Vera uses finger puppets for the grandkids on FB Portal, Richard grows roses and has beautiful African baskets called “wishing baskets” from their visits there, Brenda has a graduate and a future student of the U of A (Roll Tide), Heather makes photo books, Betty has led an active life in Minnesota and her two sons bring much joy (and one living with her now), and Lisa’s dog enjoyed the snow and she stays active leading our weekly group and supporting her husband, with NET cancer. This group inspires me. 💕 lacnets.org
Last week’s blood draw revealed the good news that my blood is headed in the right direction. They’re not perfect, but I celebrate growth! I have decisions to make. I’ve asked several, “What would you do?” It’s quality of life over quantity. Do I continue knowing how much worse it might get? Is 3 out of 4 enough to stabilize and slow down progression without causing another secondary cancer in the blood?
Dirt, digestion, and decisions. I’ll keep myself grounded. I’ll digest the good things and not stuff myself with stigma. The best decision I can make is to take one hour at a time, one day at a time. I decided many years ago to follow WHO holds my tomorrow. What have you decided?
Matt, I loved camp too! Such great memories. It sounds so cliche, but I loved singing “Kumbaya, my Lord” and many other songs I won’t forget. Thank you for your prayers~I pray for you!
Love your thoughts. I hve been visiting the past also. So many wonderful memories. Now new ones to make. I knit/crochet with a group each week and we are now making hats for a teen girl just diagnosed with OVARIAN CANCER. So weird and rare and so young. My prayers each day include her and her family. God hears!
I’m sad to hear of such a diagnosis at a young age! How pre ious you are knitting and crocheting. What a beautiful way to give back. Thank you for your support and care! God hears! I love that! ✝️💕
Another great post, Karla. I love your thoughts on dirt. I have a great nostalgia as well digging in the dirt, mud between my toes, and barefoot in the fresh garden dirt.
Lots of good words of wisdom. My thinking is that quality of life takes precedence.
Thank you, Dwight! Isn’t dirt and those memories the best? I had to clean up Finley too! 😊 like you, quality of life is everything. I listened to an expert on Friday, along with hundreds like me,…I was so happy to hear him emphasize quality of life too! He even said he is not perfect; he’s only human and that it’s the good Lord that decides. How refreshing to hear that from a surgeon! God bless you and yours, Dwight. I appreciate you!
Gary, how are you my friend? You made it home safe! I pray each morning for your family. I’m glad you found this to be good food for thought. I appreciate your wisdom, support, and prayers!
That means a lot Karla. Yes, home for the month and gone here and there through mid October. Not much time for computers and socializing, but I try to check in with many people on Word Press now and then. So glad your counts are headed the right direction.
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It’s a blessing to have the time to pray for all my precious friends. As you know, your family situation mirrors ours in ways. I can’t help but have you all in my heart! I understand about “not much for computers and socializing”. As much as I WANT to write, there’s so much life out there to LIVE. Even if it’s just going to my library, a nearby park…I often think, “How can I show the love of God to others while also getting out of my 4 walls?” I have to listen, Gary. I’ve never had cancer before, lol. My body tells me what I should do. I have to let go of all this “thinking” that has consumed me over several weeks and just let the Spirit continue to guide me. It’s never failed me! May adventures, and times at home with family, prove evidence of our lives lived in faith! Blessings to you and yours, Gary!
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Someday eternity will give us an unbelievable-believable perspective of our goings on while here. It will pale in comparison to knowing Jesus…then meeting face to face. Your prayers are so much appreciated.
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That’s beautiful, Gary. Yes! I mentioned you last night to a new friend (and his wife). In my new support group there are around 50 of us with this cancer. He is a nature hobby photographer. I shared your site with him! He and his wife live north of Seattle, WA. They called me and it was such a beautiful connection with a shared health challenge. I know he’ll appreciate all you words and photography! Many blessings, Gary!
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Sounds like my kind of guy Karla. hose connections are fun and meaningful
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Yes, Gary!! Indeed!
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I love your poem Karla! That describes my childhood to a T. I understand I missed your birthday so Happy belated Birthday! You are a wise woman who will do what is right for you, of that I have no doubt.
Pam, thank you, my friend. It came to my heart as I sat, watching my little grandson. How wonderful your childhood was that way! Thank you for belated birthday wishes! And the vote of confidence in my wisdom! Much love and hugs 🙏🏻💕
Dirt, Digestion, and Decisions. I think you should add a fourth “D” Karla…Dedication. Your dedication to your family, your friends, your readers, your faith, helping others and living every day as fully as you are able.
Even your blood cells are paying attention to you and are trying to behave themselves! Good news! Good progress!
Those photos of where you and sweet Miss Finley walked reveal a beautiful, quiet place where you could reflect and plan ahead at the same time. I hope the path you should take in this journey becomes very clear and doesn’t leave you with any indecision, in your mind or heart. The first photo with Finley is just precious.
I just love your poem. I hope you print it out, frame it, sign it, and present one to each grandchild. What a magnificent gift from their grandma. Priceless!
Omigosh! Reading what your NET friends are up to makes me feel like a slug!
Wishing you good days ahead filled with love and laughter, good medical reports, LOTS of family visits, and lots of little toes in the dirt, including yours and Finley’s.
Sending you love and friendship and continued prayers.
Ginger, I need to copy and paste all your replies in a book, just like the poem. You are so kind and thoughtful! Coincidentally, I have written a poem for each grandchild. I have Ainsley’s written, but not put in a print yet.
Don’t feel like a slug~look at you do what you do! You’re an inspiration too! Listening to them sparked my dreams again. My thoughts~would ONE more treatment give any more benefit than the 3 if I’m going to miss out on life for 5-6 more months to add just another 12 months before the tumors grow back? As we say and know, none of us are guaranteed tomorrow. How can I complete a marathon if the sprint relays cause another disease? Yikes! Oh my. Jesus, help me! Help us all!
It’s so awesome my platelets are responding….now if the white blood cells will protect tans build! C’mon little cells, we can do this!
Finn was my perfect hiking buddy. There are things I wish she could do~like laundry, trash, and cooking. But she is so adorable and loving~it makes up for it! Your love, support, and cheerleading boosts me so much! Finn and I love you, Ginger! You have my prayers, too! 💕🐾✝️
MAK~coming from you that means so so much! I understand what you’re saying. Completely. Thank you. You mean so much to us. Love, Big Enough and me 🐾🥹🥲🤗💕💕💕
Happy belated birthday and happiness continued, Karla! You inspire me. Celebrating your growth and wishing you more of the good stuff, praying for your decisions and sending loads of love.
Crystal, I appreciate your birthday blessings, prayers, and love! It’s so good to see you and know how far you’ve come in your marathon. It inspires me, too! It’s so nice to be around people who are positive and leave things in the hands that matter! 💕💚❤️
An acceptance of self, a love of self is the greatest healer there is kind lady, and you are doing well. Me personally, when I had stopped breathing and lay on my kitchen floor and God said to me…’I am the giver of life’…I finally let life go and accepted the love that He is, knew that I am here exactly what I am here for…so I just let it all go. I will attract those things that I need to ‘see’ what it is I am to learn…but more than this is…we ever struggle in life’s many opposites, even though they are our greatest teachers. But the most beautiful of them all is He has given us this conditional world so that we can find that unconditional love within us. Yes, it is hard, but it is giving us a gift beyond words. The instant you touch, feel, understand it, all will be at peace within you, and a ‘knowing’ that each and every step guided you to this place. Big hugs kind lady, His love is indeed ever there, now and beyond it all ❤️🙏
Mark, your wisdom and perspective on life and love always inspires me. Like you, I’ve experienced that love and it is a gift. I often wonder why those, who have this gift, do so much worrying? I’ve learned a lot about myself, how others “see” me~and most importantly, how God sees me. I can’t let situations, or views I don’t believe, steal my peace. It’s an amazing blessing to have so many that care; it’s also difficult when care is all worry. So I lean on the truth you know and share~The unconditional love and peace from God. He’ll guide the way. 💕🙏🏻
All those worry bits are our teachers. Our fears are their builders. Understand our fears and the worry dissolves in that understanding…and in doing so we go from that conditional to unconditional. It is so perfectly balanced so that we will follow its path. Mind you, I’m most definitely not perfect, I still worry that they will run out of chocolate dear lady. I hope there is a chocolate maker up there 🤣 Take care my friend, His arms are indeed around you 😀❤️🙏
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Mark, that makes me giggle. I know how you are with your chocolate! Now THAT’s something to worry about in my book! “Worry bits are our teachers…they dissolve in understanding…YES! Please take care too! It’s so wonderful to know WHO has us! 💚💕❤️🤗
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Most certainly Karla. And one day in those arms to finally touch that unconditional love that He is, is truly beyond words 😀❤️🙏
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“We mourn ourselves because we are also the things we love and the things we do.” Oh Karla, what a blessing Martha’s words (and yours) are to read. I contemplated very much the same as I hiked to a pass this weekend and sat below 2 summits I once sat atop not so long ago but in a very different place in life. Life was so different then – and I mourn what I have no more – but like you – I am learning to love and embrace the very moments I have now. It’s hard not to look back with longing – but we don’t have time for too much of that – none of us do!
Your daily grace continues to inspire as together we conspire to live fully and wholly. Much love to you.
Erika, I can see you at the pass reflecting on your summits. I love using the “longing” to remember to dream again. It’s crucial I stay around dreamers and remember what I love. It just might look different~like you, embrace the moment! Right now, as I type this, I’m sitting and listening to the birds and “letting go” of worry, things that can’t it won’t change, and embrace this beautiful comment as I enjoy the NOW and plan for a future adventure with my friends. I was scared, before, to do too much planning. But if I let my body get stronger again, take a break, I can breathe back in that which makes life more worth it! You know exactly what I mean! I’m not too young for cancer, but much too young to cave into complacency (which is NOT contentment ~contentment is peace in the heart~and I can’t gift that to those who worry, I can only hold it for myself). Thank you for being a friend who encourages and inspires! Much love to you! 💕
Thank you, my friend. The “decisioning prayers” you sent have already been such a blessing. I love how you perceive “life”. I love you and am blessed to know you over these decades sweet sister! ❤️💕
Karla, I am so happy to read a post from you today. You have been on my mind and heart and always in my prayers. I loved, loved, loved the poem. I am so happy your platelets are improving. Happy belated birthday, my precious friend 🎂 Sending love, hugs, and prayers ♥️🤗🙏🏻🎶💛🌻🌻🌻
Pam, I was going to email after my trip last week. I’ve been thinking of you, Butch, and the family. Remembering you daily in prayers and always in my heart. I feel the love, prayers, and support always. Thank you for all you do to support my family and me! As the platelets increase, I want the WBC to as well. My Dad shared some wisdom that while I’m “fighting” this they will probably stay down. That’s so true. I’m listening and taking one hour at a time. I don’t want to live in fear, but I want to be wise! Sending you much love and hugs! ❤️💕🤗💚🙏
Karla your poem is great! I love that you were able to step into the way-back-machine and remember so many happy times with bare feet in the dirt! As for your decisions concerning treatments, I can only urge you to listen to your heart and mind as they are moved and informed by God. I’m thrilled you had such a good ramble with Finn and that you were able to visit with your sister and grandson… Much love from Mochi and triple that from me. <3 <3 <3
Val, you and Mochi, and your lives, inspire me. Your words mean so much. Isn’t it awesome to remember the simple things in life? I will take your wisdom–“listen to your heart and mind as they are moved and informed by God.” That’s it!! Finn and I take every “ramble” we can get (I love that word!). We love you and Mochi big time! 💕🐶 Please take care and know we remember you in our prayers. You’ve had your own battles to climb out of–it feels good to feel good!
Hi John! It’s a closed cave at a nearby park called Sequiota! I love our nearby caves. When my oldest son and family were in we visited a drive-through cave in our area. There are many many caves I’d love to visit! I just love them! I hope you are well!
Karla, that is a magnificent poem: simply and eloquently expressed, and so very , very true: it is important to stay grounded; love the pics too and the reminiscences 🙂
Jennie, you inspire me daily. Your support and encouragement mean so much! Your words are humbling!! I’m so glad my words can bring such feelings to you. Wow! God bless you, Jennie. 💕💚
Is the Martha you refer to the Martha who wrote the blog, “White Haired Grace?” If so, I loved her words, and I have to say that she reminded me of you. Her way of living abundantly in the face of cancer, sharing her wisdom with others, and allowing God to guide her steps with trust and clarity. I’m so glad your blood counts improved, and that you have such a supportive (and productive) net group to help inspire and support you. Continued prayers for you and your journey…….
Hello, Ann! Martha’s site is-marthakennedy.wordpress.com (Summer of Inferior Sledding”). She’s had a full life and lives with her two dogs in the San Luis Valley of CO. She hasn’t had cancer, from what I know of her, but has had a life filled with much experience and her words of wisdom hit me hard when I was “mourning” what I used to be able to do-or who I felt I was! Your prayers, support, and encouragement help me, Ann. Your life is filled with trust and faith. Finding support, here and with the group, is indescribable to my healing! I pray for you as you for me! May you and yours be covered in blessings and love!
With God you will find the right way for you. I’m sending you so many hugs.❤️❤️❤️
Here in Yorkshire dirt rapidly turns into mud. So as a child we played a lot in mud. Mud is good for the complexion, so it’s a win win,
Gary, I think of and Hawklad a lot. Do you know how your words, transparency, and perspectives boost me? They DO, my friend! So much!
I giggled thinking of your days in Yorkshire, covered in mud! Yes, it’s a win-win for the complexion. I’ve often dreamed of visiting the area in which you live. The dust to mud gives me a whole new perspective too. We may be setting record heat here, and praying for more rain. I’ll take the mud for sure! And better, I accept your hugs and prayers. You two keep on keeping on! Finn and I are huge fans and we send love and hugs! 🩵🙏
Karla; I love the simple eloquence of your testimony of hope. These are beautiful photos and such a very, very beautiful poem. It is great that you have a group of people sharing your journey with NET. At the early stages of her cancer diagnosis Joan found a support group made up of women at our church called the GLOW Girls. GLOW was, of course, a play on the fact that many were undergoing radiation treatment, but it was also an acronym for God Loves Outrageous Women. I’m not sure how outrageous they really were, but they lifted each other up in prayer, shared insights from their doctors, asked each other good questions and passed along tasty recipes. Nothing quite like having that loving, supportive community to rely on.
I am continuing to pray for you and your family. And you are so right… what we digest every day really matters a LOT!
Russell, I appreciate you so very much. First, I’m so glad you “survived” the rapids with your fun grandchildren. Seeing you makes me think of all the wonderful adventures you’ve had. And Joan. How amazing! GLOW is a beautiful acronym! Finishing support truly changed my game; how wonderful she had the same! I’m learning so much—not just about this cancer, but about myself! Your continued prayers and support mean so much. It sounds so “cliche” to repeat this phrase. But to you, and my family and friends, I do NOT take this blessing, that others speak to God on my behalf, lightly. It’s overwhelming to me. I do hope my digestion continues to work properly; there are a lot of layers to this disease that are not shared, yet interrupt my life in such major ways. I always think of the suffering of others. We sure aren’t promised an easy life-I can’t think of a better way to get through these times without a loving and healing God! Many blessings, my friend! Give Joan my best too! She’s an inspiration!
Thanks, Karla for your mixture of ordinaryness, optimism, wisdom, realism and determination. God continues to be good, showing us how to be kind to ourselves and others, and making us continually grateful.
What a wonderful words and feedback, Malcolm! Your last sentence speaks straight to my heart! Thank you so much for your support and encouragement! And prayers!
Good news, indeed. I hope you can rest in the moment and let the good news give you enough hope and peace for the day, and allow the decisions of tomorrow to come to you in their own time, with complete trust and shalom. (I absolutely stink at doing this myself, by the way, but I can pray it for you — LOL!) Joy to you today, Jane
Jane, isn’t it true how much harder it is for ourselves? I go back tomorrow and I’m praying the white blood cells grow as the platelets! I’ll take every “win”. It does keep giving hope! I’m going to reach out to Ingrid and see how she is doing. The support group I found might interest her! Your words, “allow the decisions of tomorrow to come to you in their own time,…” very true and wise! I have to continue to listen. Much peace and love, Jane. Thank you. 💕🙏🏻
Amen. And thank you, I just got back from seeing Ingrid’s sisters last week and it has been pretty rough lately for her I was told. I am sure she would be very, very glad to hear from you. Shalom, Jane
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You’re welcome, Jane. I’m sorry to hear this. She has so many challenges! I pray for her as I do for you. Much peace and hugs. You’re a dear soul. 🤍
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I am so glad to read of your victory, Karla, and wish you news of another as you digest the changes in life and decide which road is best.
Mark, you’re such a dear friend! Today I’m positive I’m going to get even more good news! The decisions are being made for me daily in interactions, whispers, …the signs are all around as I’m looking and listening. I appreciate your support and encouragement!
Thank you, Stacy. That touches my heart (coming from an award-winning writer that is an amazing compliment!). And also, from someone I know I has a beautiful soul, too. I appreciate your kindness and support. I do hope you know how you have inspired me. 🤍
I love every word of this post, Karla! Most especially the part of your numbers heading upwards!!!! And I know God will grant you the peace of heart to understand how best to proceed. Hugs to you for sharing the wonderful talents/treasures your comrades posses – it is beautiful to be reminded we are so much MORE than our illness.🥰 I love you……
Dear Dawn,…I just left “your place” smiling at all the SMILES in your pictures. You have such a beautiful family (AND LIFE!). Thank you for your encouragement, love, and prayers. You’re always wrapping me in such warmth (as your amazing crochet). We are definitely more than our illnesses, aren’t we? It’s difficult to SEE PAST IT when it’s in your face, daily, at times. My numbers started to dip again this last Friday. It’s a roller coaster, Dawn. Good thing I don’t mind them. There have been tough days; we all have them. There have been lonely days; we all have them. I’m so happy to be united with humans who have real feelings—about love, illness, and most importantly, a God who will never leave nor forsake us! Stay blessed and well, my friend! Much love and I’ll add, giggles. 🥰❤️🤗😍🤭
Karla, your Light shines all over this post. What an inspiration you are! And congratulations on your blood draw! May God smile upon you and keep you growing deeper in Glory whereupon your healing expounds. Your photographs stopped my breath and I too heard the whispers. Yes Mother is so very much our answer in so many ways and playing in the dirt is only one way to connect with Her. I LOVE your dog by the way and pink leash! You keep celebrating Life in every way you can, and by doing so, and by finding your passion and joy, your Life keeps flowing just like the creek you photographed. You are Eternal, now and forevermore. Your positivity glows and touches every single heart that reads your words. And good for those women you mentioned too!! I seem to have issues with zoom on my computer for it won’t allow me to download. However, there is still my cellphone to attempt to download. I am SO happy for you that you found a core group of women that support you. Sending you SO much love this day!! I do love you! ❤️
Happy Monday, dear Amy. Your words always ooze with love and light! I FEEL THEM! I feel your energy and positivity. And hope. Thank you for being here with me and supporting me. It was so good to “see” you at your place this morning too. It encourages me and helps me to continue finding support here, just like the new ones I’ve found. What a bummer on the ZOOM. I like FaceTime, but I’ve enjoyed Zoom for various reasons I won’t list. Your words to me are so sweet and humbling. The blood counts are a roller coaster; they dipped last week (I can tell when they do). But it’s to be expected. “May God smile upon you and keep you growing deeper in Glory”…how amazing! I pray the same for you, Amy! I love you! 💕
But of course you feel my light and love, Karla. Your heart is wide open. There is no distance between us for we are energetic beings who can be anywhere anytime and right now we are together! You as well support me …. my Journey lately has been so far from easy yet in order to get back into the swing of things, I was given such powerful words to share. And yes, very disappointed about ZOOM. Ah, there is a reason for this as well so I trust that all will work out.
Fyi …. those lab reports are not you. You are a magnificent soul, a fragment of God, having a God experience as the human you are today. Think about all that you have added to God’s memories. What a way to perceive our lives!!! Much love and I so deeply appreciate and love you! 💕
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Amy, what a heartfelt and rich message. I barely have words to describe how that made me feel reading them. I appreciate our shared perceptions, energy, and love. I’m sorry your journey has been far from easy. For some, the hard parts make love very hard. Not for you, my friend. Many blessings and much love. 💕💕
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So glad your current blood draw numbers are improved, Karla. But even more than that, far more, I thank God for your indominatable spirit.
Mitch, your words and encouragement mean so much to me! I truly pray my spirit remains so…and we both know to whom gets the credit! Last week, the blood dipped again so I’m back to weekly shots. I’m so glad to have a care team that is so diligent in making sure I’m at my best! You’re a blessing, my friend.
Disappointed to hear about the dip in the numbers, but your spirit remains strtong, dear friend.
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Thank you, Mitch. my family and I were disappointed as well. I was shocked, actually. I think the bone marrow took a pretty hard hit with these treatments. But for God! I have a friend (I haven’t seen her in years) who tragically lost her husband two days ago. These life tragedies remind me how blessed I am. If I keep that at the forefront, it gives a boost of gratitude. I hope you know how much you inspire me with your wisdom, faith walk, and life!
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So much goodness and inspiration in your post Karla. Love your poem, that your blood is doing better and as always your faith in the process, miserable as it is at times, your daily connection to god and your love of your family and humanity. 💕❤️💕
Thank you, Cindy! I THINK I may need to just post my blood is a roller coaster~tee hee. I celebrate the ups….the next week, a down, then the up. I’m learning now, C. With the treatments and the radiation only being stronger after 3 of them, will continue to “work” in my system for a long time. Hopefully doing more damage to the bad stuff. I’m going to continue staying spiritually strong, leaning on my Lord, and mentally, leaning,too. He tells me to get out on the water and walk with him! Ok, I will! I try and grab a bunch of life vests and he nods his head~”I’ve got you!” What a personal
Journey on a path that is perhaps, other than childbirth and my children and grandchildren, gives me so much faith in goodness~despite pain, uncertainty,…others have it worse! Some, better! But no matter what any of us “have”…I know who holds me! I want others to know him too. I’m glad we’re here together. Much love and blessings, Cindy 💕💚
You are a hero and true testimonial. those life vests are carrying you to shore as the blood does its roller coaster right. Life sure gives us a jolt but you are the lighting in the sky that lights up the world and keeps healing moving forward. 🙏🏼🙏🏼😘
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Cindy! Wow,…I don’t consider myself a hero when I think of “heroes”. In your eyes, I accept that gracious honor. But wow.
Guess what? My blood was high enough FOR NO TREATMENT yesterday. Whoop whoop…now, can we tackle the bones? The digestions? And hey…those tumors..Cindy, I feel very good about “speaking” life in me because I have a MASTER who can! Happy Fri-YAY sweet C. I love you! 💛
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OMG Karla, I am doing the happy dance right now. YES to the power of Healing and love.. You are def a hero and the light is flowing and growing and all is divine.. enjoy your day and Fri-Yayyyyyyyy!!!! I love you to pieces💞😘😘😘
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Yay yay yay! I love you to pieces and smieces! I’d dance more, but my bones ache. Who cares? I’ll dance…🤭💛🎶
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I absolutely love your poem!!! I especially love the last two lines…it says so much. 🙂 We learn so much from our children and grandchildren. The wisdom found in childhood is quite profound…praying for you in these summertime days.
God hears each and every prayer…even the little prayers that are in our hearts that we do not speak. His love is so BIG and so WIDE that He hears everything!!! (And, He never, ever, gets tired of listening.) We are so blessed with our Heavenly Father!
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That’s beautiful, Linda! It’s truth and I do feel so blessed. The song “Deep and Wide” came to my mind 🎶💕
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I so wish I could literally help lift your burdens Karla, make you a cup of tea and shoot the shit with you for a while! I see how your beautiful spirit infuses everyone around you with love and inspiration. I marvel at your strength and endurance. Yes, you have been training for this your entire life. Holding you in prayer as always, sending love and hugs, C
Oh, C,…I’m giggling. I’ve had many friends use that phrase. And I’d definitely enjoy that right now. It’s such a roller coaster! I’m hanging on and trying to enjoy it. You know that feeling you get when you’re climbing the big hill? And then at the top knowing you’re going to drop, or even more, go upside down—your stomach tries to get prepared? That’s how I feel, even in the “easiest” of treatments—where all they do is hook me to IV’s…everyone is friendly, caring,..it “seems” I’m just getting superpowers. Then….later…I dread going upside down and feeling nauseous…or weak. And like I can’t enjoy the “thrill” of the climb. There’s not much that can be done, C….YET. It’s been a long two weeks of trying to obtain records from the hospital (a glitch in their system). BUT…a NEW dr from Bethesda, Maryland is stepping on the team soon. To say you would help life my burdens—just wow. The epitome of community/family. I’m waiting for the next thrill and it’s just around the corner, C! I’m expecting great things and you’re helping me! Thank you thank you! 💛💛 ARE YOU finding strength my friend? For everyone that wishes it for me,…I’m praying it for them. Always!
Firstly, thank you once again for your courage in sharing your stories of hard work and joyous time with those you love, both those known deeply to you and your blood, and those you have met more recently. Your words always bring a smile to my face and remind me of the father who watches over our every step with more care than we could ever imagine.
I would also like to thank you for an idea which formed from the words you have shared about staying grounded. In the novel series I am writing, a big part of the story is knowing we each have a part to play, individually, as part of the communities we strongly identify with, and those communities which seem harder for us to see the perspective of. I’ll try to provide a short explanation of the idea: There are five major ‘clans’ in the world of Kosetsu, Water, Earth, Thunder, Wood, and the current royal ruling house the Dragon Clan. Each serves an important role in the healthy functioning of society and the kingdom as a whole. One important aspect is to realise what kind of dirt is beneath us. The Earth Clan may find this far easier as they have been brought up to know healthy soil grows healthy plants, provides nutrients to nourish life. They also know what minerals can be found far underground to help manufacture useful tools and strong buildings. But, what if they use that knowledge to the ill of others? What if they don’t share the knowledge of using the earth well with the other clans? What things would fall apart or what actions would be performed in sub-optimal ways?
I hope your week is going well and that you find joy in the next journey your feet take. Thank you so much for sharing and providing light to those around you as God encourages us to do. 🙏✨
Hamish, first, I must share what an amazing concept, character-building, and community building plot/cast/theme for the book! Immediately my mind formed images and characters. It’s so humbling to think my words helped form thoughts and ideas on the novel (“staying grounded”). Isn’t it true we all offer so much that can either be healthy or toxic for the good of the whole? I’m so proud of you, Hamish! I’m trying to organize my writings into a book form ~I’m still in the “groundwork” (couldn’t resist ground!) of how it will “look”.
Reading YOUR words brings a smile to my face too, my friend. I see you writing, playing music, wearing yourself out on a soccer field,…all those things that make up the best of you~and what’s truly the best? Your heart for God! It’s so open and flexible to all that surrounds you~yet leads you to that which truly matters (draining through the strainer all that “gunk” which is unhealthy and unnecessary!). I can’t wait to read about the house of the Dragon Clan.
It’s been such a wonderful week. I can’t wait to write about a recent trip to visit family. Thank you for your kindness, support, and prayers! You are a light too my friend! 💛🙏🏻🙌🏻
Joy! So much joy! Thank you for your enthusiastic response! I’m about halfway through the first draft of the novel, and enjoying writing the story so much it is easy to get lost in the world. 🙂 I hope you are going well into your week!
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Yay! I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy, down in my heart! Where? Down in my heart 🎶🎶🎶 do you know that song, Hamish? I can’t help but sing over the miracles. I’m so happy for you. I just knew you could do it! I get lost in words, I understand! Keep going, my friend. Praying! 💛🙏🏻
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God, I know you have best interests of Karla within your grace-filled fingers. Amen.
I missed too many posts during this past summer. In autumn now, God nudged me to read this post. Your blessed verses share the childhood spirit found in each of us, and as adults we wish to pass it on.
When I think of simple times, I think of going to summer camp as a kid.
I am glad your test showed improvement. Will keep praying little sister.
Matt, I loved camp too! Such great memories. It sounds so cliche, but I loved singing “Kumbaya, my Lord” and many other songs I won’t forget. Thank you for your prayers~I pray for you!
Love your thoughts. I hve been visiting the past also. So many wonderful memories. Now new ones to make. I knit/crochet with a group each week and we are now making hats for a teen girl just diagnosed with OVARIAN CANCER. So weird and rare and so young. My prayers each day include her and her family. God hears!
I’m sad to hear of such a diagnosis at a young age! How pre ious you are knitting and crocheting. What a beautiful way to give back. Thank you for your support and care! God hears! I love that! ✝️💕
Another great post, Karla. I love your thoughts on dirt. I have a great nostalgia as well digging in the dirt, mud between my toes, and barefoot in the fresh garden dirt.
Lots of good words of wisdom. My thinking is that quality of life takes precedence.
Thank you, Dwight! Isn’t dirt and those memories the best? I had to clean up Finley too! 😊 like you, quality of life is everything. I listened to an expert on Friday, along with hundreds like me,…I was so happy to hear him emphasize quality of life too! He even said he is not perfect; he’s only human and that it’s the good Lord that decides. How refreshing to hear that from a surgeon! God bless you and yours, Dwight. I appreciate you!
You are most welcome, Karla!
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Thank you for sharing. Happy birthday. Always on my mind ❤️
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Aww thank you for reading! It’s so good to see you! Love and prayers! 💕
Good healthy food for thought Karla. Still praying from northern MN.
Gary, how are you my friend? You made it home safe! I pray each morning for your family. I’m glad you found this to be good food for thought. I appreciate your wisdom, support, and prayers!
That means a lot Karla. Yes, home for the month and gone here and there through mid October. Not much time for computers and socializing, but I try to check in with many people on Word Press now and then. So glad your counts are headed the right direction.
It’s a blessing to have the time to pray for all my precious friends. As you know, your family situation mirrors ours in ways. I can’t help but have you all in my heart! I understand about “not much for computers and socializing”. As much as I WANT to write, there’s so much life out there to LIVE. Even if it’s just going to my library, a nearby park…I often think, “How can I show the love of God to others while also getting out of my 4 walls?” I have to listen, Gary. I’ve never had cancer before, lol. My body tells me what I should do. I have to let go of all this “thinking” that has consumed me over several weeks and just let the Spirit continue to guide me. It’s never failed me! May adventures, and times at home with family, prove evidence of our lives lived in faith! Blessings to you and yours, Gary!
Someday eternity will give us an unbelievable-believable perspective of our goings on while here. It will pale in comparison to knowing Jesus…then meeting face to face. Your prayers are so much appreciated.
That’s beautiful, Gary. Yes! I mentioned you last night to a new friend (and his wife). In my new support group there are around 50 of us with this cancer. He is a nature hobby photographer. I shared your site with him! He and his wife live north of Seattle, WA. They called me and it was such a beautiful connection with a shared health challenge. I know he’ll appreciate all you words and photography! Many blessings, Gary!
Sounds like my kind of guy Karla. hose connections are fun and meaningful
Yes, Gary!! Indeed!
I love your poem Karla! That describes my childhood to a T. I understand I missed your birthday so Happy belated Birthday! You are a wise woman who will do what is right for you, of that I have no doubt.
Pam, thank you, my friend. It came to my heart as I sat, watching my little grandson. How wonderful your childhood was that way! Thank you for belated birthday wishes! And the vote of confidence in my wisdom! Much love and hugs 🙏🏻💕
Dirt, Digestion, and Decisions. I think you should add a fourth “D” Karla…Dedication. Your dedication to your family, your friends, your readers, your faith, helping others and living every day as fully as you are able.
Even your blood cells are paying attention to you and are trying to behave themselves! Good news! Good progress!
Those photos of where you and sweet Miss Finley walked reveal a beautiful, quiet place where you could reflect and plan ahead at the same time. I hope the path you should take in this journey becomes very clear and doesn’t leave you with any indecision, in your mind or heart. The first photo with Finley is just precious.
I just love your poem. I hope you print it out, frame it, sign it, and present one to each grandchild. What a magnificent gift from their grandma. Priceless!
Omigosh! Reading what your NET friends are up to makes me feel like a slug!
Wishing you good days ahead filled with love and laughter, good medical reports, LOTS of family visits, and lots of little toes in the dirt, including yours and Finley’s.
Sending you love and friendship and continued prayers.
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Ginger, I need to copy and paste all your replies in a book, just like the poem. You are so kind and thoughtful! Coincidentally, I have written a poem for each grandchild. I have Ainsley’s written, but not put in a print yet.
Don’t feel like a slug~look at you do what you do! You’re an inspiration too! Listening to them sparked my dreams again. My thoughts~would ONE more treatment give any more benefit than the 3 if I’m going to miss out on life for 5-6 more months to add just another 12 months before the tumors grow back? As we say and know, none of us are guaranteed tomorrow. How can I complete a marathon if the sprint relays cause another disease? Yikes! Oh my. Jesus, help me! Help us all!
It’s so awesome my platelets are responding….now if the white blood cells will protect tans build! C’mon little cells, we can do this!
Finn was my perfect hiking buddy. There are things I wish she could do~like laundry, trash, and cooking. But she is so adorable and loving~it makes up for it! Your love, support, and cheerleading boosts me so much! Finn and I love you, Ginger! You have my prayers, too! 💕🐾✝️
“Slipping further back, I fell into a trance of simpler times.” ❤️ Praying peace for you in these decisions. Love and hugs.
Kelley, you have such a gentle and precious heart and soul. Love, prayers, and hugs, sweet friend. Thank you for being here. 💛🙏🏻
Such a beautiful poem, Karla, and I don’t think Big Enough would say of herself, “I ONLY have 3 legs.” Never. 🩷 🐾
MAK~coming from you that means so so much! I understand what you’re saying. Completely. Thank you. You mean so much to us. Love, Big Enough and me 🐾🥹🥲🤗💕💕💕
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I love, love, love that poem!!!! xo!
Thank you, MB! I took a pic of Route 66 sign for you in my hometown area I need to drop it at your place when I’m on my PC. Love and hugs! 💕🤗
Can’t wait to see it!
Hello, my friend! It should be today—I plan on getting on my PC! Happy Wednesday, dear friend!
I love your poem! Yes, Follow the one who holds tomorrow! Blessings, Karla!
Thank you, Cindy! 💕 Blessings to you!
Happy belated birthday and happiness continued, Karla! You inspire me. Celebrating your growth and wishing you more of the good stuff, praying for your decisions and sending loads of love.
Crystal, I appreciate your birthday blessings, prayers, and love! It’s so good to see you and know how far you’ve come in your marathon. It inspires me, too! It’s so nice to be around people who are positive and leave things in the hands that matter! 💕💚❤️
An acceptance of self, a love of self is the greatest healer there is kind lady, and you are doing well. Me personally, when I had stopped breathing and lay on my kitchen floor and God said to me…’I am the giver of life’…I finally let life go and accepted the love that He is, knew that I am here exactly what I am here for…so I just let it all go. I will attract those things that I need to ‘see’ what it is I am to learn…but more than this is…we ever struggle in life’s many opposites, even though they are our greatest teachers. But the most beautiful of them all is He has given us this conditional world so that we can find that unconditional love within us. Yes, it is hard, but it is giving us a gift beyond words. The instant you touch, feel, understand it, all will be at peace within you, and a ‘knowing’ that each and every step guided you to this place. Big hugs kind lady, His love is indeed ever there, now and beyond it all ❤️🙏
Mark, your wisdom and perspective on life and love always inspires me. Like you, I’ve experienced that love and it is a gift. I often wonder why those, who have this gift, do so much worrying? I’ve learned a lot about myself, how others “see” me~and most importantly, how God sees me. I can’t let situations, or views I don’t believe, steal my peace. It’s an amazing blessing to have so many that care; it’s also difficult when care is all worry. So I lean on the truth you know and share~The unconditional love and peace from God. He’ll guide the way. 💕🙏🏻
All those worry bits are our teachers. Our fears are their builders. Understand our fears and the worry dissolves in that understanding…and in doing so we go from that conditional to unconditional. It is so perfectly balanced so that we will follow its path. Mind you, I’m most definitely not perfect, I still worry that they will run out of chocolate dear lady. I hope there is a chocolate maker up there 🤣 Take care my friend, His arms are indeed around you 😀❤️🙏
Mark, that makes me giggle. I know how you are with your chocolate! Now THAT’s something to worry about in my book! “Worry bits are our teachers…they dissolve in understanding…YES! Please take care too! It’s so wonderful to know WHO has us! 💚💕❤️🤗
Most certainly Karla. And one day in those arms to finally touch that unconditional love that He is, is truly beyond words 😀❤️🙏
“We mourn ourselves because we are also the things we love and the things we do.” Oh Karla, what a blessing Martha’s words (and yours) are to read. I contemplated very much the same as I hiked to a pass this weekend and sat below 2 summits I once sat atop not so long ago but in a very different place in life. Life was so different then – and I mourn what I have no more – but like you – I am learning to love and embrace the very moments I have now. It’s hard not to look back with longing – but we don’t have time for too much of that – none of us do!
Your daily grace continues to inspire as together we conspire to live fully and wholly. Much love to you.
Erika, I can see you at the pass reflecting on your summits. I love using the “longing” to remember to dream again. It’s crucial I stay around dreamers and remember what I love. It just might look different~like you, embrace the moment! Right now, as I type this, I’m sitting and listening to the birds and “letting go” of worry, things that can’t it won’t change, and embrace this beautiful comment as I enjoy the NOW and plan for a future adventure with my friends. I was scared, before, to do too much planning. But if I let my body get stronger again, take a break, I can breathe back in that which makes life more worth it! You know exactly what I mean! I’m not too young for cancer, but much too young to cave into complacency (which is NOT contentment ~contentment is peace in the heart~and I can’t gift that to those who worry, I can only hold it for myself). Thank you for being a friend who encourages and inspires! Much love to you! 💕
Another awe inspire message and lovely writing!🥰 I love you. Just thinking-with every breathe we take…everyone takes-we die a little. Th
Thank you, my friend. The “decisioning prayers” you sent have already been such a blessing. I love how you perceive “life”. I love you and am blessed to know you over these decades sweet sister! ❤️💕
Karla, I am so happy to read a post from you today. You have been on my mind and heart and always in my prayers. I loved, loved, loved the poem. I am so happy your platelets are improving. Happy belated birthday, my precious friend 🎂 Sending love, hugs, and prayers ♥️🤗🙏🏻🎶💛🌻🌻🌻
Pam, I was going to email after my trip last week. I’ve been thinking of you, Butch, and the family. Remembering you daily in prayers and always in my heart. I feel the love, prayers, and support always. Thank you for all you do to support my family and me! As the platelets increase, I want the WBC to as well. My Dad shared some wisdom that while I’m “fighting” this they will probably stay down. That’s so true. I’m listening and taking one hour at a time. I don’t want to live in fear, but I want to be wise! Sending you much love and hugs! ❤️💕🤗💚🙏
Karla your poem is great! I love that you were able to step into the way-back-machine and remember so many happy times with bare feet in the dirt! As for your decisions concerning treatments, I can only urge you to listen to your heart and mind as they are moved and informed by God. I’m thrilled you had such a good ramble with Finn and that you were able to visit with your sister and grandson… Much love from Mochi and triple that from me. <3 <3 <3
Val, you and Mochi, and your lives, inspire me. Your words mean so much. Isn’t it awesome to remember the simple things in life? I will take your wisdom–“listen to your heart and mind as they are moved and informed by God.” That’s it!! Finn and I take every “ramble” we can get (I love that word!). We love you and Mochi big time! 💕🐶 Please take care and know we remember you in our prayers. You’ve had your own battles to climb out of–it feels good to feel good!
Nice poem and pictures Karla! Where is the cave?
Hi John! It’s a closed cave at a nearby park called Sequiota! I love our nearby caves. When my oldest son and family were in we visited a drive-through cave in our area. There are many many caves I’d love to visit! I just love them! I hope you are well!
Karla, that is a magnificent poem: simply and eloquently expressed, and so very , very true: it is important to stay grounded; love the pics too and the reminiscences 🙂
What a beautiful post, Karla! Your thinking should be how all of us think and process our lives. Thank you for inspiring me!! God bless you. 💕
Jennie, you inspire me daily. Your support and encouragement mean so much! Your words are humbling!! I’m so glad my words can bring such feelings to you. Wow! God bless you, Jennie. 💕💚
Words do just that! 😀 Thank you, Karla.
Aww, it’s my blessing!! 💕❤️💛
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Is the Martha you refer to the Martha who wrote the blog, “White Haired Grace?” If so, I loved her words, and I have to say that she reminded me of you. Her way of living abundantly in the face of cancer, sharing her wisdom with others, and allowing God to guide her steps with trust and clarity. I’m so glad your blood counts improved, and that you have such a supportive (and productive) net group to help inspire and support you. Continued prayers for you and your journey…….
Hello, Ann! Martha’s site is-marthakennedy.wordpress.com (Summer of Inferior Sledding”). She’s had a full life and lives with her two dogs in the San Luis Valley of CO. She hasn’t had cancer, from what I know of her, but has had a life filled with much experience and her words of wisdom hit me hard when I was “mourning” what I used to be able to do-or who I felt I was! Your prayers, support, and encouragement help me, Ann. Your life is filled with trust and faith. Finding support, here and with the group, is indescribable to my healing! I pray for you as you for me! May you and yours be covered in blessings and love!
With God you will find the right way for you. I’m sending you so many hugs.❤️❤️❤️
Here in Yorkshire dirt rapidly turns into mud. So as a child we played a lot in mud. Mud is good for the complexion, so it’s a win win,
Gary, I think of and Hawklad a lot. Do you know how your words, transparency, and perspectives boost me? They DO, my friend! So much!
I giggled thinking of your days in Yorkshire, covered in mud! Yes, it’s a win-win for the complexion. I’ve often dreamed of visiting the area in which you live. The dust to mud gives me a whole new perspective too. We may be setting record heat here, and praying for more rain. I’ll take the mud for sure! And better, I accept your hugs and prayers. You two keep on keeping on! Finn and I are huge fans and we send love and hugs! 🩵🙏
Karla; I love the simple eloquence of your testimony of hope. These are beautiful photos and such a very, very beautiful poem. It is great that you have a group of people sharing your journey with NET. At the early stages of her cancer diagnosis Joan found a support group made up of women at our church called the GLOW Girls. GLOW was, of course, a play on the fact that many were undergoing radiation treatment, but it was also an acronym for God Loves Outrageous Women. I’m not sure how outrageous they really were, but they lifted each other up in prayer, shared insights from their doctors, asked each other good questions and passed along tasty recipes. Nothing quite like having that loving, supportive community to rely on.
I am continuing to pray for you and your family. And you are so right… what we digest every day really matters a LOT!
Blessings;
Russell
Russell, I appreciate you so very much. First, I’m so glad you “survived” the rapids with your fun grandchildren. Seeing you makes me think of all the wonderful adventures you’ve had. And Joan. How amazing! GLOW is a beautiful acronym! Finishing support truly changed my game; how wonderful she had the same! I’m learning so much—not just about this cancer, but about myself! Your continued prayers and support mean so much. It sounds so “cliche” to repeat this phrase. But to you, and my family and friends, I do NOT take this blessing, that others speak to God on my behalf, lightly. It’s overwhelming to me. I do hope my digestion continues to work properly; there are a lot of layers to this disease that are not shared, yet interrupt my life in such major ways. I always think of the suffering of others. We sure aren’t promised an easy life-I can’t think of a better way to get through these times without a loving and healing God! Many blessings, my friend! Give Joan my best too! She’s an inspiration!
Thanks, Karla for your mixture of ordinaryness, optimism, wisdom, realism and determination. God continues to be good, showing us how to be kind to ourselves and others, and making us continually grateful.
What a wonderful words and feedback, Malcolm! Your last sentence speaks straight to my heart! Thank you so much for your support and encouragement! And prayers!
Good news, indeed. I hope you can rest in the moment and let the good news give you enough hope and peace for the day, and allow the decisions of tomorrow to come to you in their own time, with complete trust and shalom. (I absolutely stink at doing this myself, by the way, but I can pray it for you — LOL!) Joy to you today, Jane
Jane, isn’t it true how much harder it is for ourselves? I go back tomorrow and I’m praying the white blood cells grow as the platelets! I’ll take every “win”. It does keep giving hope! I’m going to reach out to Ingrid and see how she is doing. The support group I found might interest her! Your words, “allow the decisions of tomorrow to come to you in their own time,…” very true and wise! I have to continue to listen. Much peace and love, Jane. Thank you. 💕🙏🏻
Amen. And thank you, I just got back from seeing Ingrid’s sisters last week and it has been pretty rough lately for her I was told. I am sure she would be very, very glad to hear from you. Shalom, Jane
You’re welcome, Jane. I’m sorry to hear this. She has so many challenges! I pray for her as I do for you. Much peace and hugs. You’re a dear soul. 🤍
I am so glad to read of your victory, Karla, and wish you news of another as you digest the changes in life and decide which road is best.
Mark, you’re such a dear friend! Today I’m positive I’m going to get even more good news! The decisions are being made for me daily in interactions, whispers, …the signs are all around as I’m looking and listening. I appreciate your support and encouragement!
I know you are taking in every sign, Karla. Fingers crossed here.
Thank you, my friend!!
Karla, you are such a beautiful writer and a beautiful SOUL! 🤍
Thank you, Stacy. That touches my heart (coming from an award-winning writer that is an amazing compliment!). And also, from someone I know I has a beautiful soul, too. I appreciate your kindness and support. I do hope you know how you have inspired me. 🤍
I love every word of this post, Karla! Most especially the part of your numbers heading upwards!!!! And I know God will grant you the peace of heart to understand how best to proceed. Hugs to you for sharing the wonderful talents/treasures your comrades posses – it is beautiful to be reminded we are so much MORE than our illness.🥰 I love you……
Dear Dawn,…I just left “your place” smiling at all the SMILES in your pictures. You have such a beautiful family (AND LIFE!). Thank you for your encouragement, love, and prayers. You’re always wrapping me in such warmth (as your amazing crochet). We are definitely more than our illnesses, aren’t we? It’s difficult to SEE PAST IT when it’s in your face, daily, at times. My numbers started to dip again this last Friday. It’s a roller coaster, Dawn. Good thing I don’t mind them. There have been tough days; we all have them. There have been lonely days; we all have them. I’m so happy to be united with humans who have real feelings—about love, illness, and most importantly, a God who will never leave nor forsake us! Stay blessed and well, my friend! Much love and I’ll add, giggles. 🥰❤️🤗😍🤭
Karla, your Light shines all over this post. What an inspiration you are! And congratulations on your blood draw! May God smile upon you and keep you growing deeper in Glory whereupon your healing expounds. Your photographs stopped my breath and I too heard the whispers. Yes Mother is so very much our answer in so many ways and playing in the dirt is only one way to connect with Her. I LOVE your dog by the way and pink leash! You keep celebrating Life in every way you can, and by doing so, and by finding your passion and joy, your Life keeps flowing just like the creek you photographed. You are Eternal, now and forevermore. Your positivity glows and touches every single heart that reads your words. And good for those women you mentioned too!! I seem to have issues with zoom on my computer for it won’t allow me to download. However, there is still my cellphone to attempt to download. I am SO happy for you that you found a core group of women that support you. Sending you SO much love this day!! I do love you! ❤️
Happy Monday, dear Amy. Your words always ooze with love and light! I FEEL THEM! I feel your energy and positivity. And hope. Thank you for being here with me and supporting me. It was so good to “see” you at your place this morning too. It encourages me and helps me to continue finding support here, just like the new ones I’ve found. What a bummer on the ZOOM. I like FaceTime, but I’ve enjoyed Zoom for various reasons I won’t list. Your words to me are so sweet and humbling. The blood counts are a roller coaster; they dipped last week (I can tell when they do). But it’s to be expected. “May God smile upon you and keep you growing deeper in Glory”…how amazing! I pray the same for you, Amy! I love you! 💕
But of course you feel my light and love, Karla. Your heart is wide open. There is no distance between us for we are energetic beings who can be anywhere anytime and right now we are together! You as well support me …. my Journey lately has been so far from easy yet in order to get back into the swing of things, I was given such powerful words to share. And yes, very disappointed about ZOOM. Ah, there is a reason for this as well so I trust that all will work out.
Fyi …. those lab reports are not you. You are a magnificent soul, a fragment of God, having a God experience as the human you are today. Think about all that you have added to God’s memories. What a way to perceive our lives!!! Much love and I so deeply appreciate and love you! 💕
Amy, what a heartfelt and rich message. I barely have words to describe how that made me feel reading them. I appreciate our shared perceptions, energy, and love. I’m sorry your journey has been far from easy. For some, the hard parts make love very hard. Not for you, my friend. Many blessings and much love. 💕💕
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So glad your current blood draw numbers are improved, Karla. But even more than that, far more, I thank God for your indominatable spirit.
Mitch, your words and encouragement mean so much to me! I truly pray my spirit remains so…and we both know to whom gets the credit! Last week, the blood dipped again so I’m back to weekly shots. I’m so glad to have a care team that is so diligent in making sure I’m at my best! You’re a blessing, my friend.
Disappointed to hear about the dip in the numbers, but your spirit remains strtong, dear friend.
Thank you, Mitch. my family and I were disappointed as well. I was shocked, actually. I think the bone marrow took a pretty hard hit with these treatments. But for God! I have a friend (I haven’t seen her in years) who tragically lost her husband two days ago. These life tragedies remind me how blessed I am. If I keep that at the forefront, it gives a boost of gratitude. I hope you know how much you inspire me with your wisdom, faith walk, and life!
So much goodness and inspiration in your post Karla. Love your poem, that your blood is doing better and as always your faith in the process, miserable as it is at times, your daily connection to god and your love of your family and humanity. 💕❤️💕
Thank you, Cindy! I THINK I may need to just post my blood is a roller coaster~tee hee. I celebrate the ups….the next week, a down, then the up. I’m learning now, C. With the treatments and the radiation only being stronger after 3 of them, will continue to “work” in my system for a long time. Hopefully doing more damage to the bad stuff. I’m going to continue staying spiritually strong, leaning on my Lord, and mentally, leaning,too. He tells me to get out on the water and walk with him! Ok, I will! I try and grab a bunch of life vests and he nods his head~”I’ve got you!” What a personal
Journey on a path that is perhaps, other than childbirth and my children and grandchildren, gives me so much faith in goodness~despite pain, uncertainty,…others have it worse! Some, better! But no matter what any of us “have”…I know who holds me! I want others to know him too. I’m glad we’re here together. Much love and blessings, Cindy 💕💚
You are a hero and true testimonial. those life vests are carrying you to shore as the blood does its roller coaster right. Life sure gives us a jolt but you are the lighting in the sky that lights up the world and keeps healing moving forward. 🙏🏼🙏🏼😘
Cindy! Wow,…I don’t consider myself a hero when I think of “heroes”. In your eyes, I accept that gracious honor. But wow.
Guess what? My blood was high enough FOR NO TREATMENT yesterday. Whoop whoop…now, can we tackle the bones? The digestions? And hey…those tumors..Cindy, I feel very good about “speaking” life in me because I have a MASTER who can! Happy Fri-YAY sweet C. I love you! 💛
OMG Karla, I am doing the happy dance right now. YES to the power of Healing and love.. You are def a hero and the light is flowing and growing and all is divine.. enjoy your day and Fri-Yayyyyyyyy!!!! I love you to pieces💞😘😘😘
Yay yay yay! I love you to pieces and smieces! I’d dance more, but my bones ache. Who cares? I’ll dance…🤭💛🎶
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I absolutely love your poem!!! I especially love the last two lines…it says so much. 🙂 We learn so much from our children and grandchildren. The wisdom found in childhood is quite profound…praying for you in these summertime days.
Linda, thank you for visiting and sharing your kind and thoughtful comments! I appreciate your prayers so much! 💕
God hears each and every prayer…even the little prayers that are in our hearts that we do not speak. His love is so BIG and so WIDE that He hears everything!!! (And, He never, ever, gets tired of listening.) We are so blessed with our Heavenly Father!
That’s beautiful, Linda! It’s truth and I do feel so blessed. The song “Deep and Wide” came to my mind 🎶💕
I so wish I could literally help lift your burdens Karla, make you a cup of tea and shoot the shit with you for a while! I see how your beautiful spirit infuses everyone around you with love and inspiration. I marvel at your strength and endurance. Yes, you have been training for this your entire life. Holding you in prayer as always, sending love and hugs, C
Oh, C,…I’m giggling. I’ve had many friends use that phrase. And I’d definitely enjoy that right now. It’s such a roller coaster! I’m hanging on and trying to enjoy it. You know that feeling you get when you’re climbing the big hill? And then at the top knowing you’re going to drop, or even more, go upside down—your stomach tries to get prepared? That’s how I feel, even in the “easiest” of treatments—where all they do is hook me to IV’s…everyone is friendly, caring,..it “seems” I’m just getting superpowers. Then….later…I dread going upside down and feeling nauseous…or weak. And like I can’t enjoy the “thrill” of the climb. There’s not much that can be done, C….YET. It’s been a long two weeks of trying to obtain records from the hospital (a glitch in their system). BUT…a NEW dr from Bethesda, Maryland is stepping on the team soon. To say you would help life my burdens—just wow. The epitome of community/family. I’m waiting for the next thrill and it’s just around the corner, C! I’m expecting great things and you’re helping me! Thank you thank you! 💛💛 ARE YOU finding strength my friend? For everyone that wishes it for me,…I’m praying it for them. Always!
Firstly, thank you once again for your courage in sharing your stories of hard work and joyous time with those you love, both those known deeply to you and your blood, and those you have met more recently. Your words always bring a smile to my face and remind me of the father who watches over our every step with more care than we could ever imagine.
I would also like to thank you for an idea which formed from the words you have shared about staying grounded. In the novel series I am writing, a big part of the story is knowing we each have a part to play, individually, as part of the communities we strongly identify with, and those communities which seem harder for us to see the perspective of. I’ll try to provide a short explanation of the idea: There are five major ‘clans’ in the world of Kosetsu, Water, Earth, Thunder, Wood, and the current royal ruling house the Dragon Clan. Each serves an important role in the healthy functioning of society and the kingdom as a whole. One important aspect is to realise what kind of dirt is beneath us. The Earth Clan may find this far easier as they have been brought up to know healthy soil grows healthy plants, provides nutrients to nourish life. They also know what minerals can be found far underground to help manufacture useful tools and strong buildings. But, what if they use that knowledge to the ill of others? What if they don’t share the knowledge of using the earth well with the other clans? What things would fall apart or what actions would be performed in sub-optimal ways?
I hope your week is going well and that you find joy in the next journey your feet take. Thank you so much for sharing and providing light to those around you as God encourages us to do. 🙏✨
Hamish, first, I must share what an amazing concept, character-building, and community building plot/cast/theme for the book! Immediately my mind formed images and characters. It’s so humbling to think my words helped form thoughts and ideas on the novel (“staying grounded”). Isn’t it true we all offer so much that can either be healthy or toxic for the good of the whole? I’m so proud of you, Hamish! I’m trying to organize my writings into a book form ~I’m still in the “groundwork” (couldn’t resist ground!) of how it will “look”.
Reading YOUR words brings a smile to my face too, my friend. I see you writing, playing music, wearing yourself out on a soccer field,…all those things that make up the best of you~and what’s truly the best? Your heart for God! It’s so open and flexible to all that surrounds you~yet leads you to that which truly matters (draining through the strainer all that “gunk” which is unhealthy and unnecessary!). I can’t wait to read about the house of the Dragon Clan.
It’s been such a wonderful week. I can’t wait to write about a recent trip to visit family. Thank you for your kindness, support, and prayers! You are a light too my friend! 💛🙏🏻🙌🏻
Joy! So much joy! Thank you for your enthusiastic response! I’m about halfway through the first draft of the novel, and enjoying writing the story so much it is easy to get lost in the world. 🙂 I hope you are going well into your week!
Yay! I’ve got the joy, joy, joy, joy, down in my heart! Where? Down in my heart 🎶🎶🎶 do you know that song, Hamish? I can’t help but sing over the miracles. I’m so happy for you. I just knew you could do it! I get lost in words, I understand! Keep going, my friend. Praying! 💛🙏🏻
God, I know you have best interests of Karla within your grace-filled fingers. Amen.
I missed too many posts during this past summer. In autumn now, God nudged me to read this post. Your blessed verses share the childhood spirit found in each of us, and as adults we wish to pass it on.