Summer is off to a stifling start? “What a life!” the almost-five-year-old chimed, her voice full of wonder as she leaned against her dad in a kayak drifting across the cool waters of an Alaskan lake. Nearby, her seven-year-old birthday brother relaxed in a child-sized kayak, stretched out and happily being pulled along by their dad. Meanwhile, near Kansas City, a six-year-old was having a blast in the community pool. My three adorable little grands are starting summer spectacularly. They all make me giggle—three birthdays in June, July, and August—my sensational stairsteps. No stifling starts!
Meanwhile in Missouri…
I started to feel stifled.
Not just because of humidity. Medical issues, appointments, digestion?
Because my back and bones ache?
The heat and I don’t get along. Cancer knows exactly where I stand with it.
Humidity, we need to talk.
When do you feel stifled? There are seasons when I feel trapped. Sickness strikes. Some days, I feel isolated because my body aches too much to move. I feel stifled because I can’t give back what I feel others give to me. Suffocated by self-pity? Selfishness? Sadness? Solitude? I’m in time-out because of treatments. Some days, I’m just miserable—and I don’t have it in me to make it known. Because…
I’ll never know real oppression.
A young mother lost her battle to brain cancer, leaving behind two young sons and a grieving family.
And I…complain?
Stifled?
No. I’m merely sidelined for now.
In silence, I savor.
In song, I praise.
In rest, I recuperate and remember—
ALL HE HAS BROUGHT ME THROUGH.
You might be surfing, swimming, or lying on a beach,
Or working two jobs with basic needs out of reach.
You may be lying in a hospital, facing the unknown,
Or watching a loved one reach a milestone.
Maybe you’re shopping, hoping to impress,
Or feeling stifled, suffocated, even depressed.
Hearing someone say, “You should just smile,”
May help for a moment—but only a while.
It takes much more than words like that;
True change must reach the soul deep.
Find the true Source of life
For your heart to hold and keep.
No matter the season—
the hot, rainy, or cold—
Your heart won’t stay stifled;
He’ll be your stronghold.
With trust and faith,
giving Him your all,
He’ll free your breath
as you answer His call!
K.L. Hale
Have hope, sweet friends. Keep the faith. You are loved.🧡
Friends, you may have noticed my website was “Under Construction”. In lieu of being “stifled”, I learned new editing features. SImpler structures. Yet, also many learning curves! I’m certain the 30 revisions will become 31. Progress, not perfection! Thank you for your patience as I continue learning and growing; despite physical issues that cause my MIA moments. You’re all such treasures to me! Stay blessed–NOT stifled! 🙏🏻❣️
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Kids really do enjoy all the fun of summer. I am glad you are enjoying your grandchildren, Karla. Seems like Alaska would be the place to be with all these 100 degree days! Take care, my friend.
Kids and summertime~ the best! I’m so happy for technology to watch them grow. And soon, God-willing, I’ll get up there and play with them. and lay. And rest. Just to be around them.
I hope you’re taking care too, Dwight. 🙏
:>) Mountain photos are up and running!
LOVE thEM!!!
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I love the poem, and am impressed with the shrinking-line style. Also, I like poems that rhyme, better than those that don’t. I think you’re a good rhymster.
I can only guess how frustrated you must feel when people do nice things for you, and you’re too sick or tired to reciprocate.
Yes, it’s hot. A kayak ride on an Alaskan lake would feel very refreshing right now.
Thank you, Tippy! It’s strange~ it just seemed to work. I didn’t have a poem in mind, just the words and within a few minutes, it was written. It’s very elementary style ~ I’m sure from the years I was around kids. I love sing songy!
Yes, I would rather just not ask for help as it feels like a burden. Yet, I also know when I MUST ask for help. All of this coming on the end of the Independence theme.
It’s so fun seeing them all together after his time away and enjoying their camper and time in the great outdoors!
Nothing like it! I appreciate you dear friend.
I rarely post these days but my last attempt to post was so frustrating. I was looking for the simple to use Classic and found it but it no longer offered italics, bold, an easy click to post an image etc. It offered me small, medium, large font. I wish WP wouldn’t change stuff all the time. I don’t want to have to be a tech whiz to use it.
Regarding your feeling that you have no right to complain because a young mother died and left two sons…..I’ve never bought into that belief. Your suffering is important just as much as someone else’s. It is your body talking to you, your soul communicating, wanting to be heard. I believe that when we give voice to these feelings it is honoring ourselves rather than dismissing ourselves.
I’m glad you are able to find joy in your grandkids’ experiences. I’m not fond of heat either and so glad I don’t live where there is high humidity.
I’m so sorry to hear about the frustrations with posting–I was wondering. I get lots of emails, like I know all of you receive. Yet, I’m not on here daily, so I lose track. I do want to support all of you as you do me!
The changes are tricky. This was the first time I’ve used Editor on my homepage. Honestly, the extra learning part takes my mind/body “off” of the immediate situations–and when I’ve had enough–I go without tech a day or two to recover. It’s a nice balance.
Thank you for sharing and honoring our feelings. I don’t dismiss them, but I do keep things in perspective which helps. I’m thankful that I don’t “stifle” how I’m feeling and let it flow out. But also, that I’m better able ot manage them as I mature (and hope to keep doing so). Yet, easier said than done sometimes. Ah, humanity!
I’m glad you don’t live in the high humidity areas and I hope that you can get back to posting–and that you stay blessed and well, my friend. I appreciate you!
FROM: Murphy’s Law
Stifled is not a pleasant place to be. But then again, you could be stagnant or saturated or slimy or smoldering. No matter what life throws at you Karla, you always rise above it….not without a great struggle sometimes, but you make it through to the other side. You apparently were born to be a role model, and that you are.
Lazing in a kayak in Alaska sounds heavenly. Our grandchildren bring us such pure joy it’s hard to put into words. I’m so glad you are enjoying yours, and that they have you in their lives.
Cancer and its treatments brings pain, knocks us off our feet, takes us out of the running for days on end sometimes, but we’re getting better at dealing with it. Hang on and hang tight. Next summer you will be in a kayak with your grands!
Rest easy Karla, treat your body gently, and never lose sight of your goal.
Sending you gentle hugs, warm kisses and heartfelt prayers. YOU should be your first priority. Belly rubs for sweet Miss Finley.
Love, Ginger🦋❤️🙏🏻🦓
Ginger, you inspire me so much! Thank you, precious friend.
Let’s talk about those “s” words–wow!! I have felt some of those, and I can add a few more, lol! BUT…they won’t last. Nope. Not gonna let them. Never. If I do–well, then I’m done! lol.
Those kids, all of them, are truly living their best lives–that’s ALL that matters to me. Pure heavenly!
So many here, just like you, have experienced tremendous loss. And health issues. I think of you in all of this. Yes, we do get better at dealing with it. I’ve always thought I’ve had a high pain tolerance (higher for pain than people at times?). But now, I’ve learned I don’t have to tolerate it–I just have to toss it over to my Lord. Let it out. Not keep it in. It’s stifling. It HAS to be released. And the more I accept it, the easier it is. I remember when I first found out what it was–it was actually a relief. Sounds crazy.
But KNOWING what it is helps you accept it.
Knowing that my Savior has me also helps me with the saturated specifics!
I’m being gentle and giving myself grace. A pace of grace.
After your sweet email, I gave Finn kisses on her itty bitty nose, rubbed her cute little belly, and snuggled with her before a bit of play time. She gives out fast too. She’s curled up right now.
We LOVE YOU, Ginger!!🤗❣️🥰🐾🐾🙏🏻
Way to go, Karla! I like your poetry too, and your command of alliteration is impressive! Keep on keeping the faith. You are an inspiration for all of us not to get stifled. Blessings!
Thank you, David! I appreciate you so much, brother!
I’m happy you appreciate my alliteration! Let’s all stay “cool” in Christ and not get stifled–we’ve got this! Well, I know you already know! Many blessings to you and yours!
I already know, but needed the reminder to believe what I already know. More power to you, sister. 🙏Heavenly Father, strengthen Karla with your power and peace. Amen!
Thank you, David! I feel the prayers. Amen! May He continue to strengthen you (and give rest while you can too!!). I appreciate you! 🙏🏻🙏🏻
I have been thinking about you and praying for you. It was extremely hot here in Pennsylvania but yesterday and today much lower temperatures but the humidity is high. Sounds like a seesaw, up and down. Your grandkids are more brave then me, there is no way I would get in a kayak. Take care,
Maryann
Hello, Maryann! Thank you for your continued prayers, sweet friend!
I wondered how the temps were doing there. Seasaws for sure across the country!
My sons always loved kayaking and canoeing (as did their Mom, :-), so it doesn’t surprise me with these little ones out and about!
God bless you! Take care and thank you again!
Great post! Captured the moments of your journey well. I so appreciate your focus on Christ and the blessings you swim in along with the trials. It is not simply a trite reply to say that some of our greatest blessings arrive in the luggage of our greatest difficulties. But you already know this!
Talk soon? God bless. The worn-out Rascal sends his best!
Tim
I’m so sorry it took me so long to get “here”, my dear dear friend. Thank you for this precious message.
In my Jeanne Guyon book today she shared exactly this message, Tim. And I think of our hours of Christ conversations and the journeys.
I KNOW that if I didn’t have difficulties my intimacy and union with God would NOT be what it is today. I praise Him for it! Yes, I thank Him for cancer and all the ways He’s brought me through in the last decade. From the unknowing of my health issues–yet, knowing Him and that He would be faithful. THAT’S what has gotten me through–and taught me. You know this too!
Kristy and I had fun celebrating our birthday yesterday. But the recovery of just being out and about is taking me longer–the “further” out from treatment day, the “dips” in the counts become more apparent. Fatigue. Soreness. But my joy remains!
Rascal, buddy, Finley and I give our best. We’re sending tons of Christ’s love and hugs to you both! Stay well! We’ll talk soon!
good on you, Karla: I’ve been there : do not get stifled ! push through to the other side, as the Doors said; Jesus gives me strngth and security though the humidity kncks you about; I’ve had an amazing breakthrough with ‘just getting on with it’ and having faith; will post it the net few days — cheers, John 🙂
Way to go, John!!! Thank you, my friend!! ❣️🥰👏🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
Wow, such a profound read! ✨
Thank you!!
Hi Karla: reading one of my favourite passages Romans 4. 18 praying for you, Colleen and Carol that your cancers will be healed — and believing, believing —-
Love those, John. I’ve added Colleen and Carol as well. I can remember those names easily my friend. I’ll always believe.
Even better–no matter what, it’s ALL ok. Thank you, my friend.
thank you, Karla for adding Colleen and Carol to the list, a trio of names beginning with a hard ‘C’, a useful mnemonic —- whew , that’s a hard word to spell 🙁
Such a beautiful reminder, Karla. You continue to encourage through your struggles. Thank you. Sending love and prayers. 🕊️❤️
It’s my blessing, Kelley. And thank you, precious friend. Yesterday I communicated with my friend from Arkansas that reminds me of you (she lives in Maumelle).
I pray that I can always be encouraging. God, help us all. May God give us all the strength and grace to keep an eternal perspective–knowing that all of these things bring us closer to Him if we choose. Sending love and prayers to you and your family sweet friend.❣️🙏🏻
Karla, the prayer warriors are sending prayers to Jesus and the Father for you. I’ve put your name on the prayer chain again (in case they’ve forgotten you). I hope you can feel the love flowing from here to you. I’m sending cooling thoughts and pleasant breezes! 🐾🐾💗🐾🐾💞
I FEEL IT, VAL! Thank you to you and those amazing women warriors like you! Please give them all my love! 🩷💞❣️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Dearest Karla, the video was so precious! I can imagine a kayak on a cool lake in Alaska with those cobalt blue skies. Your poem is perfect. Take care of yourself in this heat and humidity. You are always in my prayers and in my heart. Sending love ❤️🙏🏻🌻🦋🌺🎶❤️
I love you, precious Pam! Thank you! Aren’t they just darling?
June, July, and August—such wonderful times as these little stairsteps turn 5, 6, and 7 (6, 7, and 5 in that order of birthdays :-)). I’m so happy you enjoyed this.
Yesterday, Kristy and I enjoyed our birthday together. It’s surreal. I’m so blessed and thankful. It’s taken me most of the day to get to my spot here. Recovery is a bit longer. Yet, each event is worth it. I love this pace of grace. The quiet after the fun. God gives me strength when He knows I need it. I rest in Him when silence is needed more than strength. Walking in union with Him is the best I’ve ever known. I know you understand this.
You’re in my heart and prayers always🩷🙏🏻🎶🦓🙏🏻
Happy belated birthday my beautiful friend and to Kristy, also❤️🎶🎂🎶🥳🎶🎉🎶❤️
Oh, Karla, you’re a shining example of faith and resilience for so many. Love and prayers, dear friend. 🧡
How precious to say, dear friend. Thank you, Mitch. Sending love and prayers to you and yours, always. 🩷🙏🏻
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Karla my Dear Sister you are truly a Blessing and so Incredible… I love how your Faith and Strength encourages us that being sidelined is not the same as being defeated. Through pain, uncertainty, and waiting, God remains our strength and our stronghold. How you remain so Faithful and Trusting is such a wonderful example of how we should walk with the Lord and His promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us….
Praying that you continue to feel His Comfort, Peace, and Grace each day. 🙏
You Are Loved 💛
Karla, Your poetry touches my heart. The ‘S’ words you shared can make scars that never heal…but that shaky, startling, sincere Faith you describe and talk about pulls us through. Thank you for writing your blog and sharing your thoughts. The ‘S’ words I think of when You come to mind are SHARING and Supporting! God knows we’re not perfect but he asks us to share and support each other with love. That’s what you do in your writing! : ) Praying for you to feel healing love and comfort. Love always, Sue
Precious Sue, thank you, dear friend. Sharing and supporting–aww. There was a time I didn’t want to share because I felt like it was all…too much. Yet, support has always been a choice. God DOES want us to share and help support one another.
It would be easier to share that everything is just PERFECT. But it never would be. Although I often think of the way social media in the last decades have influenced decisions on sharing only the “good” stuff of life. It’s the juxtapositions of joy and the jarring. The sad and silly. The despair and delight. God made it ALL. My happiest moments weren’t when i walked the closest with Him or even KNEW Him like I do now. It’s taken years of those “s” words (I’m giggling because of our school situation and what you and I would say to one another). But we all have “S”. Shaky scars of course! tee hee . And we must keep the humor, too.
I feel love and comfort, Sue. The stifling start hasn’t stopped me. It slows me down. I’m ok with it all. I feel your prayers and appreciate them. Specifically, the “slowing” is because of things dropping with these treatments (and bones at times).I love you dearly and am stopping only to pray for you and your precious family right now.
Such a beautiful and heartfelt response, Willie. God bless you, precious brother. It’s these circumstances that continue to GROW my faith and strength.
I’m thrilled that you see sidelined differently than defeated! YES! Because of your book on baseball, tee hee, I can say that in these innings of life (which you know I love baseball too!), I’m ok to sit on the bench when I need. I’m STILL in the game. I don’t have to hit, run, or score. But I love cheerleading everyone else on the team, Willie. It’s the best!
I do feel His comfort, peace, and grace–and I pray that for you and yours too. Much love to you all!🙏🏻🩷
Hey Karla, beautifully written kind lady. And I think bigs hugs coming at you. Your tired, and the heat does not help. Trying to focus on something intricate like coding and feeling as you do…uh, tasks become very trying some days. But in that little shady place inside, He is helping my friend. That ocassional urge to sing or humming so that its vibration relaxes you. Or sleep with Finn next to you 🤣🐕🎶❤️
It has been raining on and off for a week over here so the breeze along with it has been a bit cold. But I can send some over by courier to give a little comfort 🥶 By the time it gets there it should be nice and cool 😂🐬
Plus in that cool box I’ll send you some help, healing, comfort and care. As well as many hugs, lots of love and many chocolates too. (They take my mind off lots 🤣🦓🕊️).
Hang in there Karla, many prayers coming over to you, divine assistance, and lots of healing love ❤️ May there be a spot by some water, a cool breeze, and just a loving break from it all. A request has been entered in prayer kind lady…better sit down, it was a bit strong 🤗🥰🤣🫶🏻🌟🐾🐶🦓🎶🐬🐳🌹❤️🙏
Mark, thank you, dear friend. I could do a “lapse time” video of me working on the website and it would look incredibly impressive TEE HEE (minus the reaching for Kleenex’s and bathroom breaks–and stops to give Finn hugs and kisses?) lol.
I’m no longer embarassed to share HOW LONG it takes me to write. I know there are daily writing prompts that I could practice and just type away. My arm would “break down” too fast and I wouldn’t be able to write what the Lord is preparing. He knows I’m slow so I love his timing too –Tee hee. HE always knows best!
I can’t complain about experiencing the 4 seasons. July and January are my hibernation months due to weather.
Plus, I’ll be waiting for that cool box of loving comfort and CHOCOLATE lol!
I’ll hang in there and keep taking one day at a time! I’m sitting and feeling the effects of that breeze (ok–a little fan by me tee hee). Even better– I feel the prayers and love! Finn and I send our love, prayers, and some heat to you. I’d send chocolate but it would be a gooey mess! 😂💞🐾🐳🐬🦓🎶🦅🐾
Oh well, the chocolate would solidify once it crosses the equator kind lady 🤣🙏
Website coding is a little intense. I did my Diploma for it back in 2012, but within 5 years its old code. It still works but the code now is developing at a fast rate, I barely recognise it 🤗
Hang in there Karla, I’ll get the dolphins to splash you lots on the next delivery of love, light, and a nice breeze 😂🫶🏻🐾🐕🦓🌊🐬
Big hugs, free memory (yours and the computer 🤣), and great ideas for the website Karla. It can be testing but it is so great when you see it all fired up and singing. Take care 🤗🥰🐾🐶🦓🎶🦭🐳🌺💖🙏
We just have to remember that He is with us and knows. He loves and understands and is the only one who does. We can learn to rest in that alone. That is what we need. Not an easy thing. I am praying that you find it. Kisses to you and Finn! 😘
Amen, Mama Wenda! That’s exacctly what I rest in! I love that I can “purge” the tears and emotions–and the laughter. Each new experience brings more faith. I’ll ALWAYS rest in that promise of His knowledge and presence. Finn and I are sending back tons of love and hugs and kisses too! Thank you for being you! God bless you so much. ❣️🥰🩷🐾🙏🏻
🌹🕊️🎶❤️🤗😘🙏🏆🌷👍I know that you do! 👍
Love the poem! As I started reading it, I immediately thought of an old song by a guy named Larry Norman. You might have heard of him. If not, look up the song, “Righteous Rocker,” from his album “Only Visiting This Planet.” 1972. Norman was known as the “grandfather” of Christian rock music. I realize your poem didn’t go in quite the same direction as his song . . . it was just the way it started. ❤️
In regards to being “stifled,” man I felt that in the past couple of weeks. But I also know that there are many people who are worse off than I. Even with C’s issues and S’s issues (I don’t think much of my own, really), I know that there are others worse off. I mean, none of us have cancer, right? At least as far as we know, anyway. We got stuff, but we’re getting by. And Jesus is good! Jesus is so good! As you read my blog entry later (I’m still writing it), you will know exactly what I’m talking about. I’m not stifled, this morning.
Thank you, Jeff! I’ll go check out the song after I reply to everyone (and your blog entry!). I have heard of him! I’m a Keith Green and Daniel Amos fan. I have several of their songs on my playlist. I was a toddler during the Jesus Movement of music…I love music!
I know the heat truly hit down your way and all the other issues. Like you, I always think of others who have it worse. It doesn’t mean that I don’t have my times I cry with Jesus. But I love that I can keep MY issues in an eternal perspective and keep others’ issues in my immediate concern (if that makes sense?).
Jesus is SO good. Yesterday I celebrated another year being this side of heaven. Truly, each day is a gift. It took me ALL day to feel well enough to get on my computer. Recovery from being out and about is harder–but I’m walking and praising his name. That’s what HE wants me to do. And that’s exactly what YOU do, brother. God bless you and the ways you encourage all of us! ❣️
YOU’RE A DANIEL AMOS FAN???? Sister, they are my FAVORITE band of ANY genre!!! Ever since my trombone playing buddy introduced me to ¡Alarm! Back in the 80s! “I Love You #19” is my all-time favorite song. ❤️❤️❤️
YIPPEE!!! That’s so awesome, Jeff!
I love the interview segments on their Collector’s Edition, Jeff. SO cool.
That song reminds me so much of like…The Beatles? Like “Grace is the Smell of Rain”
I’ll admit I love the traditional folk and Americana sound more! BUT because I was in high school in the 80’s I have to say I like Alarma! lol
Bob Dylanish vibe–very neat. Lyrics always so interesting!
I grew up on Southern Gospel and old country. I loved 80’s rock (southern). Bluegrass is one of my favorite all-time genre’s!! I love classical music, too.
My music taste is SO eclectic. I have several songs from individual artists in the 80’s and 90’s. And now most of Keith & Kristyn Getty’s songs (my favorite Yet Not I but Through Christ in Me).
Have you heard of All Saints Collective? So beautiful.
And—check out–SONS OF SUNDAY (I will watch them and just…cry).
I guess I went down a music path my brother….lol!!! 🩷🎶🎶
I will look up All Saints Collective and Sons of Sunday. I also like some bluegrass. I’m a big fan of Alison Krauss and Union Station. And O Brother Where Art Thou? is one of my favorite movies. “Grace is the Smell of Rain” is a beautiful song. Terry Taylor is very influenced by The Beatles. I like the whole Motorcycle album. Horrendous Disc is my favorite of theirs, but Doppelganger comes in a close second. “The Double” is a great song. Heck, they’re all great songs! LOL!
Do you also like The Choir? I have loved DA, The Choir, and the 77s for decades, and when they formed The Lost Dogs, I about lost my mind. I’ve gotten to see them a number of times, as well as The Choir and the 77s. Sadly, I never got to see DA. but I’ve met Terry at a couple of Lost Dogs shows. I’m Facebook friends with most of them.
I haven’t listened much to The Choir! How awesome!
I love Alison Krauss and Union Station!! God bless you brother!
Your poem is absolutely wonderful, Karla! I didn’t know cancer would be more difficult during certain seasons. Your faith is your rock, and your grandchildren are your joy!
Thank you, precious Jennie!
This might help clarify–on April 23rd I received an outpatient internal radiation treatment. I have to wait 8 weeks in between. Every 4 weeks I receive an injection (it’s a different treatment).
The internal radiation really impacts my platelets and counts (white & red). It might be giving me a touch of pancreatitis too. In Missouri they will only give me a total of 6 of these.
3 years ago I had 3 of them. Then, the NCI in Maryland accepted me and he removed a LOT.
Since this cancer is not curable, only treatable, I’ll never be without treatments.
After progression in March (and a year of being on another treatment) it was decided to do the last 3 of these and see if they can get me to …STABLE!
The tricky part is….keeping me healthy. My blood good. Quality of life. All of those things while I’m receiving treatment.
If my platelets aren’t at 70,000 I can’t have the last treatment. They dropped 200,000 after just the first one, so I won’t be surprised to see how I’m doing at next week’s labs and injection day. I’m used to everything…dropping. And it makes me feel much worse. Fatigue. Sore. Sleep issues.
I’ll have scans the end of July (the 27th). I’m expecting…STABLE.
It’s hard for me to keep up with it all at times, Jennie. Monthly appts, invoices, drs….I know I’m supposed to see my endocrinologist sometime this month too. Lol.
Yes, my faith is my rock and my family my joy!
I keep an eternal perspective! We’re all living Stage 4. None of us are guaranteed tomorrow! So through each season I’ll take it one hour at a time!
Sending you so much love and hugs, dear friend! You’re a gift!🩷🥰🙏🏻
If you think it’s hard to keep up with this, I’m struggling to comprehend all you have been going through. It boggles my mind. Thank you for the clarity. I have read this many times, it’s a lot to digest, and of course a lot for you to go through. Eternal perspective… those are wonderful words. God Bless you, Karla, and please keep me updated. I care!!!
That’s so kind, Jennie. I sure will! I have bloodwork and scans coming up–I’m expecting the best! I care for you too, my friend.
Keep me posted, I care. And, attitude is everything! Many hugs, my friend! 😍
Thank you, precious Jennie. I sure will! Amen! And love and hugs to you! 💖💞🥰🤗
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Beautiful my friend, beautiful ❤️❤️
Thank you, my friend. 🩷🩷🩷
It has been hot here too and I am not a fan of it. We are experiencing a respite for a few here though with cooler temps and rain. It helps me to remember cooler days are coming in the fall.
Today has been our best day. Like you, a respite with better temps. But I made a mess of my website when I tried to “update” it (hours!!!) and then, my store wouldn’t work properly with the new update. SO, then I had to learn to code again (with the help of AI) to use a storefront theme for my ecommerce. All while balancing fatigue, dr’s calls, and getting ready to go drop my car off. Tee hee. All of this keeps my faith steady, brother. I miss reading. I’ll be home all day tomorrow, without my car, and look forward to catching up on blogs. Jesus loves you so much! I miss you!