Equal Equinox

Over the past year, my life has felt a lot like an autumn tree. There were seasons where heavy situations felt almost stifling, leaving me weary and longing for relief. In fact, with all the tears I’ve cried over the last few weeks, I’m pretty sure I could have ended the local drought all on my own! But as the crisp, cooler air finally moves in, it brings a long-awaited wave of change—a chance to pause, take a deep breath, and let the cool breeze wash over me.

This time of year brings the equinox, where day and night stand as equal partners in the sky. It’s a gentle reminder that in our own journeys, light and darkness often exist side by side. My faith and joy don’t require the complete absence of hard times; even when the shadow feels just as long as the day, I am anchored in the truth that light functions differently than darkness. Darkness cannot put out light—even the smallest flame cuts through the deepest night. The breath of Christ still breathes life into me, ensuring His light overcomes every shadow.

I am ready for this new chapter. Even if my own colors are changing and things don’t look quite like they used to, I’ve learned that our hardest transitions can also hold our most radiant moments of faith and growth. Every fallen leaf isn’t an ending; it’s simply making room for what’s next, nourishing the ground for new roots to take hold.

Thank you for walking this journey with me, for sharing in these river reflections, and for reminding me that we never truly weather the changing seasons alone. It’s been a while since I’ve laced up my boots, but I’m looking forward to hiking along the trails together.

Here’s to stepping into the crisp air, trusting the process, and resting in His constant, overcoming light and indwelling presence.

Do you know how loved you are?

Have hope, dear friends. Don’t lose faith. 🍂💚

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Have you heard of NET, yet? 🦓

I’ve now finished all my scheduled rounds of PRRT. The anemia has left me feeling pretty fatigued as my blood counts recover, but today’s telehealth visit with my wonderful NET specialist at St. Luke’s gave me so much hope! We are trusting that upcoming scans will show ongoing stability.

As the autumn air marks the start of my favorite season, my body may feel low on energy, but my spirit is full of joy. Managing the day-to-day tasks through aches and tiredness can feel daunting on my own, but thankfully, I’m not walking alone—I am being carried. Just like the trees gracefully surrender their leaves each fall, I am learning to release my worries and surrender daily at His feet. Through it all, He makes it easier to stay deeply rooted.

In light of recent experiences, I felt led to share this: if something feels “off” or if you are hurting—whether physically or emotionally—please don’t carry it alone. Reach out with an S.O.S. text to a family member, friend, co-worker, or counselor.

Please know how deeply loved you are. I know that can be hard to hear if you aren’t feeling that love in your current situation, but as much as the world wants us to believe our value is tied to our work or what we accumulate, in the end, none of that matters.

***Please accept my gratitude and my apologies if you’ve reached out and I haven’t been able to reply. Between treasuring time with family and navigating daily tasks, my bandwidth is narrower right now.***

You are cherished, my friends.💚🙏🏻

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