Spring Spending

My mind and body tried to adjust. My heart, full of joy, kept a perfect beat. The 8-hour car ride (time with my son and friends) was the perfect medicine. New sights. New roads. All led to family. Growing little bodies, small busy hands, and the cutest voices still echo. Reading, the zoo, nap times, and just being together were the cures I desired. In ways, time halted. In other ways, it went too fast. Memories for a lifetime were made. “Grammy K, can I go to Missouri with you?” “Of course!” I thought. Tee hee! We’ll nab little sis, pick up your cousin in Warrensburg, and have a grand ol’ time! Oh, for wishful thinking! Fast forward to spring. I’m already spent.😁


A Dollar A Day

Adjusting from a trip is harder now. Yikes, more adjustments! I reckon that’s what keeps me on my toes! My toes work but they, along with my feet and calves, are a bit swollen. There’s a glitch in my hitch (ugh) and my blood counts are low. I’m spent and spring just started! A sweet Momma from a school I just visited shared about another fellow “sufferer” that “spends” her money quickly. I’m a spender, too.  Here’s my energy budget for the day:

                *My morning time is priceless. Time with my Heavenly Father, coffee, meditation, and stretching keeps me well within my “bodily budget” *

  • $.05-getting ready
  • $.05-taking medication and eating
  • $.35-answering texts, checking emails, responding to others, reading, and paperwork
  • $.25-eating lunch, hydrating, recharging, unexpected tasks, rest
  • $.20-household tasks, Finley (she’s low maintenance but deserves attention 😊), resting, unexpected tasks, or shopping
  • $.10-eat, clean, text family, end my day
  • Broke by bedtime

Total-$1.00 (feel free to add zeros-100’s, 1000s, or however many you desire 😉

As you can see, the least spent is getting ready, eating, and taking medicine. 75% of my energy is consumed by the end of lunchtime!  That last dime is gone by 7 pm.  One year ago, I had double this money in energy. Triple this two years ago! I was canny with currency and outdoor activities! Indeed I can create currency by counting my blessings.

Many days I’m “broke” before I can visit you. Thank you for hanging in here with me. Some of you reading have sent emails, cards, and well wishes. Do you know how that has beefed up my budget? Do you know how thankful I am for each of you? I’ve missed you, my friends! May your currency stay consistent, your hope high, and your faith firm. You are so loved.💚


Have you heard of NET, yet? 🦓

Seeing the zebra hit my heart differently this time. 💕🦓

This Tuesday’s treatment has been canceled. I was bummed hearing this today. My platelets need to rise! Prayers for platelets 😊!My legs and feet are swollen, my back is out, my joints hurt, and I’m weak. The good news? By golly, NOTHING is going to take my joy. Did I tell you how much fun I had visiting family? My goal is to see my other son and family soon. I’ll never stop dreaming! Will you join me in staying positive, hopeful, and optimistic?


Thankful Thursday Shout-Outs 📣

First and foremost, my family. 💕This journey, although unique to me, is not mine alone. It has impacted everyone. Where would I be without you? To my parents: your unwavering love and support carry me. Thank you to my sons and daughters-in-law (Jarrod, Brooke, Jay, and Cierra) for loving me at my worst and best. Your sacrifices and families are the legacies of your commitments. I honor that and love you to infinity and beyond. The grands, soon to be ages 2,3, and 4, light up my life! My twin lives knowing that a possible gene mutation is shared. She “shares” this cancer with me. She and my older sister “carry” this with them. I love them so much. My nephew and niece provide smiles and love-I offer it back always. My cousins (Steph, your morning calls), aunts, and uncles-your prayers and love mean everything.

I want to give a special shout-out to my friends, Charles, Kim, Trish, and Stacy for loading me up and meeting Jarrod 1/2 way on the trip to Texas. This tribe has my “back” always (and Mary, too!). My “sister” Kim (thank you for volunteering to go to treatment; we’ll try again soon), who God put in my life at the ripest time (and we share so much in Spirit). And, of course, our 3rd treasured trio member, Rhonda. The memories and laughs make me grin. Rita, Judy, and Judy-you’re my family. Forever and Always. Judy, the trips to Springfield and memories at CHANCES thank you. Rita, I cherish my unopened gifts and years of laughs! Rhonda swirled in with the spirit from years ago; she just knew! Sonia, you and your precious son’s cards, gifts, and texts. Vicki, Cindy, and Joy-your cards lift my spirits. Martha (you teach me so much-you “3” are in my mind’s Refuge and heart), Mama K, Julie (another sister who keeps me listening to the Spirit), Kate, Dwight, Cheryl (C), Cindy (C), Lisa, Dawn, Kelley, Pam and Pam, Eddie, Jennie, Mark, Gary, Matt, Mitch, Kate, Russell, Brad, John, R.V. John, Hamish, Bill, Tangie, Cindy, Laura, Beth, Mama Lava, and many others: when I see your names in “reader” I know you’re well. This gives me comfort! Tim, your unwavering walk with Christ (and my yummy coffee) inspires me! Keith and Melinda, God brought you as neighbors right at my diagnosis. Your walk with Christ impacted mine. Our foundations have literally shifted and grown stronger. Because of you, “Karla’s Cottage” exists. Do you know how humbling this is? God has given me more than I have ever deserved! HE does that for all of us if we so choose! Larry & Phyllis, thank you for the truck prayers, giggles, and a life full of laughs. Thank you to all who I may have missed. Without all of you, I’d genuinely be bankrupt with bitterness. Let’s keep on keeping on!

Have faith 💚

Finn says, “Have faith!”

Homecoming

𝑰𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒎𝒔 𝒂 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎.

𝑴𝒚 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒆𝒔, 𝒇𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒃𝒊𝒈 𝑮𝒐𝒅, 𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕. 𝑹𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒓𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒎𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚.

𝑨𝒕 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒚. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒃𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚. 𝑨𝒄𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒔.

𝑴𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒆, 𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒓, 𝒑𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒇𝒚, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕. 𝑴𝒚 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒊𝒔𝒆. 𝑰𝒇 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆. 𝑰’𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒖𝒕𝒆 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒈𝒆𝒕. 𝑴𝒚 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏, 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒗𝒊𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒂𝒍. 𝑰’𝒎 𝒋𝒂𝒎𝒑𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒋𝒐𝒚! ♥️

I’m beyond thrilled my parents will meet their great-grandkids. After 2 1/2 years there will be lots of joy around THE Family Table when our Air Force men, their wives, and precious babies gather together. My home is here. And although they were both raised in Missouri, they have established their own homes with their families, and that’s what home is~family. It’s not a place. It’s the people. Family is everything. ❤️

Oh, the joy to see a highchair!
Mom’s rocker, sons’ blankets, and a pup
Table made by my Uncle O.J. when the boys were small.
Books for Grammy K and grandkids…and a pup.

Have faith 💚

Dogma

“Dogma means the doctrine of belief in a religion or a political system. The literal meaning of dogma in ancient Greek was “something that seems true.” These days, in English, dogma is more absolute. If you believe in a certain religion or philosophy, you believe in its dogma, or core assumptions.”

http://www.vocabulary.com/dictionary/dogma

There’s a lot of dogma being dished around. For me to love others and treat everyone as I wish to be treated is my own personal dogma.

It was March 4th. My pup, Finley, was sitting in my lap staring at me like usual. Me? Well, I was still reeling from the media coverage of Super Tuesday. If you’ve read my post, “In the Middle”, you might have an idea of my thoughts in regards to politics. The word dogma was stuck in my mind. Quarantining myself forever might be the best option if my mind will not allow my brain to learn new information and adjust my understanding of the world around me.

I will not waiver on my beliefs of a man named Jesus. Nor what he sacrificed for me~or how I want to live, teach, and forgive as he did.💚 But to be pushy, arrogant, or down-right judgemental, ahem~too dogmatic, will only hurt myself and others. It would defeat what I believe my purpose to be. When uncertainty is present, we may not feel in control. That’s ok with me. The best thing I’ve done in life is let go of control.

How open-minded are we as a society? As humans are we collectively helping one another through paying attention, experiencing new learning, being non-judgemental, and reaching out? How can we problem-solve if our mind is frozen? And unable to apply new understanding to become better decision-makers?

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma-which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

~Steve Jobs

Pardon me as I display a wee bit of dogmatism on this post. Finley River, my pup, is the reason I hold true to this dogma~dogs are the perfect companions for us imperfect people. It’s a fact that dog IS God spelled backwards. 😏💚

Any other dog lovers and owners out there? Cat owners, don’t be offended by my dogmatism. Every animal has its place in the world 💚

Have faith 💚

I’d like to take a moment to thank a fellow blogger and writer for his encouragement~http://beetleypete.com Check out his page! And his dog, Ollie 🐶💚

“Homing in”

Owning a home is a blessing…..isn’t it? When I reflect on my past homes I vividly recall the tremendous efforts I made towards “perfection”. The home was a direct reflection of me (I was messier at times than the house). I took pride in every room~particularly the kitchen, my favorite spot. My boys needed to love their home. There was comfort there. Despite earthly turmoils and heartaches at times, there were also periods of peace, laughter, and love. ❣

“For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, and eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.”

2 Corinthians 5:1

If you’re familiar with my essays, or my life, you understand the shifting sands I’ve experienced. And I know for a fact a home cannot be built on shifting sand. I’m not the first, nor the last, to experience it (shift happens).

To avoid confusion between “honing in” and “homing in” I’ll use them in examples: Definitely, I’ve been honing my skills (honing as “sharpening”) through years of valleys and peaks. And now, once again, I’m homing in on my summer territory once again.

Home~*a place where one lives permanently (noun), *to go or return to one’s place of residence or origin (verb), and my favorite verb meaning~*to return by instinct to its territory after leaving it.

Merriam-Webster Dictionary

Living tiny in a big world

Owning something brings pride. Particularly if you have invested your own sweat, blood, and tears. Ownership is coupled with great responsibility. And after years of shifting and believing that I had finally found “home”, I was ready to downsize and find what fits “me”.

Perhaps the years of walking halls, traveling in the summers, and dreaming big inspired my “nomadic” tendencies (or a born gypsy?). Becoming overly practical and simple supported my healing. It was 5 years ago I was determined I could live “tiny”. Everything I owned fit in a 50 sq. ft. storage unit (still does).

Living in an R.V. definitely has its positive and negatives. Just as owning a home. Should I rent or buy? I almost sold my R.V. (taking down the “For Sale” sign is a good thing for now). For the last 18 months I’ve dreamed of my tiny home. I walked into the office of a local log cabin builder and asked, “Can you build me a tiny log home….on wheels?” A local bank was willing to give me a personal loan IF I placed 50% down. Unfortunately, there are those who might have an Uncle Frank (take no offense Franks) who decides to build a shed (not at all compliant with ANSI or R.V.I.A. codes), put it on a “shifty” trailer, and call it a park model or tiny home. There are many building codes, zoning, and regulations tripping up tiny home owners. Furthermore, you have to have SOMEWHERE to place it. It’s WAY easier to get an R.V. loan than a park model or tiny home (typical salesman: “I’d love for you to buy that $60,000.00 rig for huge interest although we know it will depreciate $10,000 as soon as you drive it off the lot~much like cars”). I won’t stop dreaming of a tiny dwelling. But in the meantime, I’ll enjoy NOT paying mortgage and property taxes and being responsible for anything that could go monstrously wrong with anything bigger than my 34 ft. Rockwood Windjammer. For now, it’s still safe and practical. But I won’t stop dreaming of my tiny home.

“For the record, I have to be in a position to travel to see my amazing grown sons, daughter-in-law’s, and now, the newest loves in my life–GRANDCHILDREN! I guess between J and I we will need at least 4 tiny homes to hold possible grandchildren vacays.”

Grammy K

I’m home in Missouri. Nestled in the rolling hills near lakes and lots of activity, Branson is a great family-friendly place. But truly home is where I “make it”. And homing in at the campground for a season brings me peace. Nothing else to me beats sitting around the campfire with my fellow workkampers. They are family to me. We are a like-minded outdoorsy kind-of tribe who enjoy fires, the outdoors, the ins & outs of R.V. living, and meeting other travelers. We’ve become “ok” to the things that aren’t as “easy” (emptying black and grey tanks, going to the laundrymat, keeping propane filled, etc….). Perhaps it builds our grit while keeping us humble?

One day wheels might take us to a new home, possibly West. But I don’t spend my time worrying. In the meantime, after this season ends, I’ll think about how to hunker down next winter. Our families are here and they need us. And when I need to jet off to one of my own children or grandchildren, I won’t have have anything but a “tiny” place to leave. Workkamping boosts my spirits, energy, and wallet. Last night I visited with some fellow workkampers, both in their 70’s, who had decided to dwell in a condo for the winter. They agreed that their money will be more well-spent on memories. For some of us, we chose this life. And for some, me included, life kind of chose it for us and we found it to be our “home”.

Wherever you are I hope you “home in” on the most important things in your life.

Have faith. 💚