Happy Earth Day! I feel the need to get down-to-earth. Since Mother Nature threw a front on me (which knocked out a hike) I’m going to get “down and dirty” about what has really been stinking up my environment. It’s me~I’m the pollutant.

The beginning of 2020 came in with a bang. It seemed so different than years past. Officially, I’ll be a member of the “cool older kids club” when I turn 50 (right?). Surely since I’ve spent so many years being “young and dumb” that being “old and wise” might be within reach?

Although there have been many life decisions~where to go, what to do, and what’s home base for me, I have still struggled with who am I?

As I type this the rain is pitter-pattering on the roof of the R.V. And as I look outside, the lushness of the trees and dripping of the rain reminds me of the emotional downpours I’ve recently experienced.

For the last several days I’ve partied-unfortunately the occasion was pity (a big thank you to my pup, Finley, for always being a loyal guest and not eating all the party food). A few close friends, loved ones, and family were dragged innocently. All I wanted to do was cry. I mourned the fact that my adult children and grandchild (and one on the way) are so far away. I cried after a lady slammed on her brakes in front of me and told me I need to get my f’in cheap-#$% Subaru (ouch) off the road. I cried when my pup hurt her leg, I cried that my stimulus check hasn’t arrived and the IRS says I OWE them for the insurance that wouldn’t pay for anything! And then I’d cry more because I was being pathetic! Has anyone else had a pandemic pity party for one? Or was Mother Nature just showing her power with my emotions in honor of Earth Day?

Is this what they call a mid-life crisis? And for heaven’s sake, how many tree branches have to slap me into reality? Here’s what I’ve learned during this nesting period(pegged by a fellow blogger):

  • I don’t want to go back to the way it was before. It’s going to be better. This hit me like a ray of sun. 🌞
  • Quiet time alone is essential. Placing necessary boundaries is not mean. Everyone can benefit from boundaries. This hit me like a hurricane. β›ˆ
  • Do I really need all I have? And is what I’m doing with my extra time beneficial? Answering these helped me realize that what was “normal” for me was not producing growth. It was time to prune. This hit me like a tornado. πŸŒͺ
  • Human connection is important. We need each other. Although I prefer very small groups and being alone, it’s good to connect with others. This hit me like a tidal wave 🌊
Table Rock Lake, Branson, MO

How can I be the calm and peace I feel WITHIN every morning with meditation, devotion, yoga, and setting my mind on “things above” on a consistent basis? Through reliable experts on the mind and health, and the most reliable book I know, the Bible, I know this: we are all humans with emotions. We are all loved. We are all forgiven. We are all journeying together. We can all learn. It’s ok to sometimes not be ok.

Do you really wish to go back to the way it was? Perhaps to a job you hate? Working with someone you need to learn to tolerate? To go back to the mechanical way of just getting through a day? Stop thinking you have to be perfect. Start being kind to yourself and allow yourself the opportunity to cleanse your soul clean. Let it out. Take a deep breath. Inhale the love and grace. Exhale slowly. Love yourself. Whether you know it or not, you are loved.

Have faith. πŸ’š


45 thoughts on “Down-to-Earth

  1. I’ve been on the verge of pity parties several times. I’m a serious introvert, so solitude is not hard on me. BUT, it’s almost too much of a good thing making it not so “good” anymore. It’s supposed to be a nice break from people, not a lifestyle. I was thinking today– about the Earth Day post I’m preparing to prepare (lol)– and thought the very same thing about myself. Guilty! Anyway, great post!

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  2. It’s ok to be emotional right now. Between the so called scientists with their agenda, the politicians and the media spewing out fear and panic porn every minute, the energy soup around the planet has been filled with fear, despair and the term “social distancing” to keep people apart, separate, pitting mask wearing folks against those who choose not to, on the on. I would suggest you aren’t having a “pity” party but crying the tears in this energy soup.

    It’s great to look for what makes you feel peace and joy, make new choices for the future. We’ve all lived like slaves for a long time. It is time for sovereignty and freedom for all.

    Sending on peace to you!

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  3. blindzanygirl

    You have described me too, here. I don’t think pity parties are altogether a bad thing. They release a lot that needs to be released. And boy, is there a lot to be released with all that is going on around us at the moment. Solitude? I love it. But all this is a bit much. I hate crowds though.

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  4. Jeff Payne

    Beautiful. We all have pity parties In our own life. It makes us grow and get stronger for things that we know are real in our lives. Prayers. J. ❀️

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    1. Thank you from the bottom of my heart and coffee cup! I’m very close to the earth myself (and 1/16th Cherokee ~my Great Grandmother). Thank you always for your support! β€οΈπŸ’š β˜•οΈ

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  5. “It’s ok to sometimes not be ok.” Absolutely. ❀ I've found that during this weirdness I have two days "up" and one day down, pretty much regularly. Today's a "down" and I am going to have to just suck it up, put the leash on Bear and head out into the wind. I really don't want things to go back to "how they were." I didn't see much good in that, but I'm a distinct minority on this planet. I hope every day that people look around and see the benefits conferred on Earth by our abandoning our purposeless frenzy. But I'm a weirdo and I know it. As for the bad days, well, you know, "Take no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take care of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the malice thereof." I like to mix KJV and Wycliffe on that one. Those really bad days are not just EVIL. They're MALICIOUS. ❀

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    1. Thank you πŸ’š that verse speaks volumes. And I’m a weirdo too (as you have probably learned πŸ™ƒ) You nailed the bad days indeed! And I’m so glad God is orchestrating all of this~because us humans can royally mess it up πŸ’š

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    1. Oh thank you so much! I’m honored. I’m trying to learn how to do the awards. I had successfully accepted and completed one or two. It means SO much to me. Today, I will be hiking and thinking of this honor. And tomorrow I will share my thoughts. God bless you. πŸ’šπŸ’šπŸ’š


    1. Thank you so much πŸ’š and to you! I’ve nominated you for the Liebster Award. I find your writing so inspiring. And to all of us in this together ~May we continue to pass our torches. πŸ”₯

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  6. I think this pandemic has forced everyone to look inward and decide what’s really important. Some will learn and grow… others won’t. It was a lovely reprieve for Mother Nature. I’m just sorry her breather won’t last.

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